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2007-10-23T23:59:00.001+08:00

THIS PLACE IS HEREBY CLOSED.
PLEASE GO TO http://mervinthelame.livejournal.com FOR THE NEW BLOG :D

CHEEEEEEEEERS.

2007-10-23T00:06:00.000+08:00

guess i'll be moving on to livejournal after the o's but anyways life's mundane.
wake up, study, eat sleep.
fatty and unhealthy lifestyle :x but well i guess i really have to motivation to study and i'm thankful to God for really strengthening me on the tough journey.
my ministry aint really well, i'm really sorry to my sheep ):
bahhs once the o's are over i shall really work on my ministry and fitness haha
anyway many things in my head left unsaid and will be kept that way.
the mind is deceitful!

rely on God more than ever. He is my strength, my strong tower. the rock i lean on, my everything.

this journey opened up my eyes to see God's goodness in another perspective and i really appreciate him more and more now.

i see the importance in walking with God and living life with God more and more now.
can't imagine life as a non-believer anymore.

anyways, first day of O's is a horror. AMATHS paper1.
sucks man. ): big stinkaye BOOOOO!
i hate cambridge la, my batch is the last year to do lotsa stuff so they set difficult papers to tekan us ):
however it aint that hard, it's just not as easy as it used to be.
i emphasise the word easy with last time.
anyway im renewed by God and i'll overcome this with his power and might (:

spiritually and physically renewed.

serving God was NEVER a thing of the past or something outdated.

2007-09-30T00:20:00.000+08:00

suddenly i feel like im the bad guy. :/
finally voiced out my grudge against someone and i guess things turned out this way.

who knew he faced such problems and i had to rub it in.

but i was treated unfairly too la.

rahhh i guess its best we avoid one another.

problems problems problems.
i really miss the good old days when i was at peace.

3 weeks without alvin is so disappointing.
not only am i not doing well
yongkang is leaving the group and my school people aint doing too fine.
i dont know what to say to him when he returns.
how everything messed up.

freedy too must be bothered.
im really sorry for creating this mess.

many people are so good to me but i guess i've been a shitfaceidiot to them.

sorry ):

2007-09-27T23:09:00.000+08:00

this is the story of some guy who cant seem to do anything right.
life as him aint easy. he's got people expecting from him and watching over him.
in the eyes of others, he could have done better. but he didnt.
now he is drilled to do better. as he strives to accomplish what is required of him, he does what was instructed but it just wouldnt pull through successfully.
now he is stripped of what he had and asked to be independent.
how more can anything get worse. he gave his best but i guess things didnt turn out what everybody expected.
now no one seems to be able to understand and help him.
all hope seems lost.

im tired of doing what im supposed to.
its hard when the other party doesnt want to cooperate.
sometimes being a leader is a pain.
taking care of myself is already a burden, i guess decision was best made this way.
sometimes i question myself whether the picture the Big Guy up there sent me was to be or not.
it seems so far away. too faraway from here in the valley.
unsettled business, homework and problems cant stop piling up on one another.
must i really live on the bare minimum.

when will that day finally come?

2007-09-27T23:00:00.000+08:00

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my ability to find meaning in life and to experience feeling at a deep level
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2007-09-25T19:28:00.000+08:00

my love for GOD is growing everyday!
wheeeeee happy and i cant believe i was the total opposite last week.
GOD, i overcomed this with you and thanks to your grace and mercy (:

many things happened that left unreported
let me start with the fact that my school is not growing yet. i need to build a community in xinmin before i leave. XINMIN CAREGROUP, its definitely possible.
rahh wasted lots of chances, met a bunch of xinmin peeps at amk lib on sunday and i didnt talk to them. shucks missed a step.
rahhhhhh my passion shall not be extinguish that easily.

anyway pete is funny.
at the begining it was toilet issues.
now he has developed new antics haha hilarious
shall not publicise it as he is a GREATFRIEND indeed (:

prelims results are out and shucks i guess first three months will be spent in a dump :/
must mug le!
MUGGG! MERVIN! MUGGGGG!

2007-09-24T23:26:00.000+08:00

gosh i cant stand it!
i noticed a certain classification im in now. i guess now im catergorized and i guess im thrown to the "little do i know about you" bin now.
its bugging me when im under the obligations of my own dignity to refrain from doing something heartbreaking. im serious about this and i cant believe it has worsened lots.
really need to thank keith for being there for me and helping me out lots. and i agree what he says man. Man will fail to fulfill promises but God is ever faithful. amen to that after i have finally witnessed some unpleasant experiences earlier last week.
well i guess the only way to remove this 'grudge' is not to gossip but really resolve it between the other party.

well come to think of it, i really dont understand behaviour of humans.
sometimes things just surprise you. never judge a book by its cover, smilarly dont judge your friends for u might never know how they feel about you too.

its sad how something bad can erase the memories of the pleasant things that happened in the week. just because of one negative thing.

for example:
4x4x5x10=800
whereas
4x4x5x10x-1=-800

the happiness turns to sorrow and agony.
and apparently -800x-1 =/= (+)800
because introducing another problem makes everything worse.

blah.

2007-09-23T12:08:00.000+08:00

can never get enough of happyness. precisely why im so upset ):
no im no emo kiddo no more but when u are sick for the whole week especially when it concerns your sinuses it is very irrtating as you cant breathe well and talk properly. :/
well i was not in the best of mood yesterday and i really want to apologise to NEA.
): im sorry for being such an ass.
i cant help it im so emotionally stressed up this week and to top it off with sinus irritation during worship, there can never be anything worse than that.
im not making excuses or anything but i guess im not really capable of handling my emotions.
got lots of problems but i guess i shant share them to anybody but God. somethings arent meant to be said to anyone but God y'know.
i cant get over the fact that im always unable to overcome such problems in my life. again and again i will fail to overcome and this is really bugging me.
will i ever be better?

rahh disputes with a certain somebody but i agree that im at fault but the situation always seem lope-sided - all blames are on me it seems and its really irritating. i accepted the blame but now i keep wanting to justify myself and i know the outcome wont be great. knowing the person and stiuation all will fall back on me with a heavier impact. i have no say.

now exams are nearing second by second and i really have no mood to study. whats worse is im retaking my freaking chinese and i know nuts about chinese.
why cant life be a bed of roses? ):

nonetheless i know what im living for and thats more than enough to keep me going.

life at its lowest.

2007-09-20T22:45:00.001+08:00

if i ain't found my purpose in life and known God, my life would be downright screwed upside down inside out.
im so sick of this lifestyle. i rather live in a rural area where at least there is peace and serenity.
i miss my hideout and i wish i could be there now.
i miss my reservoiur so badly la.
im not even given an opportunity to be there.
school school school is all i do.

give me a break! aahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

i've officially lost it.

2007-09-18T17:39:00.000+08:00

school sucks!
i hate school now. stupid place.
everything is going against me. (emo kid rendition of what im saying)
seriously dont students too have human rights. you can force us whether politically or not to do something we are not obligated to do.
is hair really such an important factor of our attire. i mean fringe touching eyebrows is suuuuch a big crime man that deserves a fine of $4 to pay for some shabby haircut by some irritating barber? some teachers have longer hair than me. some student leaders have longer hair than me. how can they teach the students about hair if theirs are not up to the school's own standard.
this is outrageous.
i was caught for my fringe which was not long at all. really *innocence-filled face*
so this stupid student leader did not inform the bloody discipline master about my case which was just to trim my fringe and no payment to that barber. that would have saved me from a slope and my $4.
i'd rather give the money to charity than for this cause.
the $4 could have bought a meal for some needy person instead of this useless cause.
secondly they didnt give a warning before catching us. and then it was off to shave.

sickening. im so gonna sue them off. must watch 嬴了LAW to really make an impact for my stand.

2007-09-09T01:12:00.000+08:00

Jesus, beautiful saviour.
God of all majesty, risen KING.
Lamb of God, HOLY and RIGHTEOUS.
Blessed redeemer, bright morning STAR.

all the heavens shout your praise
all creation bow to worship you

how wonderful.
how beautiful
name above every name
exalted high
how wonderful
how beautiful
Jesus your name, name above every name, Jesus

ahhhh life's a struggle but i ain't alone and i will stay strong and praise the Lord in any circumstance.
hahs i guess my lifestyle has changed a lot and yeah i feel rather confused now but its all okay.
well there are people in your life that you really want to strangle but you can't if not population on Earth would drop to a meagre ZERO 0

anyway yeah im a changed person and im even surprised i reacted differently from how i would normally do. the always ill tempered

this week well what's left of it was my supposed holiday. well im so busy i barely realised it was a holiday. not that i am unhappy about how busy i am but i really want to run away from the hustle and bustle of my life and really go to Lower Pierce Reservouir to really let go of all the stress and bleah who knows what.

a loooong retreat with nothing but my bible and the holy trinity at the reservouir would be great hahs but of course this materialistic world can't live without money and handphone so they would be the third and fourth party respectively. xD

gosh i just cracked a joke. i see a bit of life in me now haha
okay that was overly redundant so i guess my life is really unpredictable and it would be boring to post what i did on my blog. that would turn my blog into an account of my daily actions and happenings instead of a place to exploud all thoughts/emotions.

rahhhh why cant life be easier. just a bit will do.
):
feeeel like sleeping forever. :/

2007-09-01T23:54:00.000+08:00

SUCKS thats all i can say

2007-08-23T14:47:00.000+08:00

mervey suffers from flat hair days!
gosh flat hair this whole week need to wake up earier to do it ._.
well stinks man i hate prelims

Monday was a holiday for me wahaha bcos i had no prelim pp that day so
i still school la sian go take my files
stuupid first 4 papers are the sciences la so it was very stressful and chemistry stinks study so hard and then i guess i will fail i left lotsa blanks. fill in the blanks with more blanks.
history was grrreeeeeat! although i barely studied germany and a little bit of russia
well today had geog and guess wad for 2 days le i set my alrm but it dint ring! gosh i was supposed to wake at 430 to continue and my phone dint ring woke up at 630 instead
sian la 2 hrs gone ...

sians but its amaths tmr so dont really need to study just practice a bit so i can finally say hello to my siesta.

heeeeeeeeeeehs late night studying kills the lazy mervin.

2007-08-16T22:08:00.000+08:00

time really flies when you are not blogging :x
well i didnt realsie its already 3 days since i last blog
well caregroup was awesome ytd
worship was so awesome i teared :x
i really felt guilty la im not doing very well but God had never hesitated to give me grace and mercy and well i feel very unfruitful
i want to do more than this

well studies are turning for the better but not very much
and im finally able to contact junlong
wow my ministry is really building bit by bit

its great to know that God is watching over me (:

well class conflicts are worsening as they ppl involved keep getting called up during lesson time
which is rather ironic as what they wanted was the so called 'bullies' and the victim to focus on their studies while they keep interrupting lessons for this
well i have no say rather be neutral
however being neutral is bad too
the victim keeps pestering to know what im doing with the 'bullies' or what ppl think about it

all i have to say is ....
sickening i want to be free from this!
its not my problem so dont pull me in!
i know u need someone to share ur feelings with but im already stressed up about lots of stuff alr so i suggest u get a blog or journel.

gosh stress is finally in my life :x
and its horrible im ageing 5x the normal speed ):
i just want my sleep and daily necessities i dont want to do all these studying and working things!

i need a break.

2007-08-13T22:24:00.000+08:00

eons ago hehs but still... aren't i nice to the new believers(:

boscooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!

my shot at something artistic haha

Mervin of 2070s

don't we all just love tighty whities? :D

Gee's choco-choco dinner

NEA @ OPERATION BEAR

404 de galleria

first we have ...

random drawings in class haha

Mugshot-ed! hahas

Grandpa stories with uncle CunKuang See no evil,Hear no evil,Speak no evil

Wong & crew at URA Singapore's CBD in the perspective of giants

Shannon at URA stairs.

2007-08-13T22:12:00.001+08:00

gosh CHEEEENA STINKS!
argh my school is reputed for the chinese results and i am a hurhurhurh ...
well stinks sinks stinks
but i gona redo for the sake of getting presentable report slip (:
anyways God has been sending me signs and messages but i did not realise until its all over
gosh im such a lagger
well met a guy got to know him on tuesday and guess wad karchian wanted to bring him to church (: gosh its like wow signs again
quiet time read up about prayer and undetering faith and persistence and haha somehow linked to meeting today oh gosh GOD IS GREAT!

haha well ironic stuff happened
smoky day because its the first day of the seventh month of the lunar calendar
haha u knw wad im refering too and well complains were heard
well anyways finally got the gazillion of pictures in my phone to be posted
but shall post it on next post cos i duno why when i type finish and i put picture in my spacings go haywire

anyway shopping ytd with guozhang was great!
CONVERSE SHOES FOR JUST $30 at BUGIS!
wooooh and sadded topman sales items so lousy ):
FOX 50% off storewide and all items!
amazing right haha well we went crazy scouting for my levi's shoe and he bought the same bag as me! the adidas bag la haha
well we got the same converse shoes too

national day holidays were not really well spent academically-wise
but there was loads of fellowship! :D
ok haha lameness well sports was like siao la
wednesday was badminton day for my cg
then national day morning was OPERATION BEAR, activities at the SAFRA was awesome (:
then friday was sports (bball, badminton) day and steamboat
gosh haha

well pics to be up sooooooooooooooon

2007-08-06T22:49:00.000+08:00

gosh life is really mundane now...
study study study i cant stand it :/
im really confused now, its like when u did have peace u felt so troubled but in that period u really learnt how to cope and grow from there
but now when all is calm besides the stress from studies, something seems amissed
well its a paradox of life, after u have been trhough all the problems and now that u are free from problems u just cant help but worry about every slightest thing
reminds me about the egyptians in the old testament ...

anyways i guess life is unpredictable and thats wad makes it fun/exhilirating

well i have a lot of mixed feelings and yeah my blog seems to lose all the crappy details of my day but now its the insights and my opinion ...
i guess when we get soo busy we just lose touch and drift away

full time shrink needed!

2007-08-05T22:18:00.001+08:00

cant really blog seriously and im still considering whether i should blog or not :/
cant really blog to my full potential cos i got lots of stress now :/
i really need pictures in my blog
oh well anyways more than a week since i last blog but i aint gona state the week down hah primarily i cant remeber what happened but yeah nevertheless my life is forever a y=sinx (sine) curve
sianededed
to me now life seems to be HOMEWORK!
seriously if homework is not counted as studying then i have not studied at all
the workpile is astronomical not to mention i have to juggle a few responsibilities and thank goodness i have a maid at home
i cant imagine life without her .... im such a spoilt kidd
and i love studying in the night but i sleep too easily
well i have sleeping disorders or swhould i say waking up disorder ..

well no point whining so might as well do something about it.
take action.

i just want to scream and lose control
throw my hands up and let it go

Got up on the wrong side of life today, yeah
Crash the car and I'm gonna be really late
My phone doesn't work cus it's out of range
Looks like it's just one of those kind of days
You can't kick me down I'm already on the ground
No you can't, but you couldn't catch me anyhow
Blue skies, but the sun isn't coming out, no
Today is like I'm under a heavy cloud

And I feel so aliveI can't help myself
Don't you realize

I just wanna scream and lose control
Throw my hands up and let it go
Forget about everything and run away, yeah
I just wanna fall and lose myself
Laughing so hard it hurts like hell
Forget about everything and run away, yeah

So-so's how I'm doing, if you're wondering
I'm in a fight with the world but I'm winning
Stay there, come closer it's at your own risk
Yeah you know how it is life can be a b****

And I feel so aliveI can't help myself
Don't you realize

I just wanna scream and lose control
Throw my hands up and let it go
Forget about everything and run away, yeah
I just wanna fall and lose myself
Laughing so hard it hurts like hell
Forget about everything and run away, yeah

Run away, run away

I just wanna scream and lose control
Throw my hands up and let it go
Forget about everything and run away, yeah
I just wanna fall and lose myself
Laughing so hard it hurts like hell
Forget about everything and run away, yeah

2007-07-27T23:49:00.000+08:00

my soul has been revived and i feel the passion burning within me rawhh!
hehehs yeah i shall work on it (:

well i really need to buck up and pull up my socks now cos the prelims is nearing second by second :O
ESS is tmr and it will end soon ): but it also means i can put in more time into my studies which i have been neglecting gosh
yeaps its the end of my fasting period and actually not that im anorexic or anything but it has really made me learn the lesson of how valuable food is and yeah we take it for granted
its the source of strength and it trains u to fight temptation from others
well it has saved me some spare change xD yeaps fasting is a great way to grow and learn to build faith in GOD too

yeaps and i guess my blog invites lots of weird visitors
yeah its surprising to knw who actually reads my blog and pfft hope they really understand that they are featured so that they realise how their actions have an impact on others
i mean u can read all u want and flame me all u want but if u carry on ur childish and senseless acts u might as well not read it as it defeats the purpose

2007-07-26T20:40:00.001+08:00

life stinks especially when u are in a rush :/
woke up late as usual and yeah realised i lost my N2D run funds envelope la
gosh find here and there like tornado in my room all messy then decided i should just go school
too late sure late de so i prayed that hopefully i wont be late and gosh God is really merciful to me
although i reached there abt 7.24-7.25 the morning assembly was already held so i got there quite late but because the gate was closed to prevent anyone from entering while the morning assem was on, many ppl congregated there and haha i was like there for 1 min before the assem was over and we were let in
then we were all excused because the music started 3 mins earlier, so haha i still benefited heng ah ...
normally even without the 3 mins earlier horh i would already be late
so yeah PRAISE THE LORD!

then found out i dint bring and do lots of stuff for today la
gosh i was so lost during lesson time :/
well n2d run...should i skip it or go?
i gave the money le but should i go run? i very lazy to run la and somemore go there waste time
how how?

anyways went for mini fellowship at yongkang's house (: and yeah gospel of john was very refreshing as i almost forgot most of it :X

spiritual life is not really good lately
faced lots of discouragements and temptations but i have not given in and i know that God will bless me through and i will grow and overcome them

cant stand some ppl, they are so anti-christ to the extent that they just shout all their useless criticism in hope of deterring people in believing in the saviour of the world.
he even got disturbed when he saw me read my bible. he is afraid of it so terribly already
bad signs

2007-07-24T21:36:00.000+08:00

July 24th 2007. on this very day, many important events occured, such as JASMINE'S YEO's 16th BIRTHDAY and also MERVIN's 16 1/2 BIRTHDAY!

wahaha ok well today has its ups and downs
finally received english essay back and i got a 12/30 la!
stinks i was writing without a plot and then my story was not very well developed and i wrote the word 'started' 5 times in a paragraph like as in every line also have la. then Mr Pah read my essay out loud and he was so engrossed that he dramatised it and yeah everyone laughed la
bahhs ): yeah so i guess i really need to watch what i write instead of being in a trance

well resolved business. wahaha it was just as i prayed for (:
well shan't elaborate more but at least my heart is at peace and i justified myself (:

contacts contacts all not free ): its saddening how they are so busy

and im finally doing my work properly haha i studied a bit :D

2007-07-23T20:15:00.000+08:00

sadded day
yeah i really hate myself for being so uncontrollable with my emotions
anyway yeah its also the fact that there are some people in class that are starting to show their true colours and it ain't pretty at all
they gang up against others whom in their eyes are not 'worthy' or to their satisfaction and they bully that person
seriously i guess i'll be next on their list but im ready for it, i really don't mind being humiliated if what im doing is what God pleases
i live my life not please humans but God for his love and trust is beyond words
yeah non-believers will definitely not understand as they have not been touched or realised
some have even hardened their hearts that they cant feel it and that's sad.
every human seeks attention no matter how introvert u are
it is our nature and u can't deny it
so much for the declaration of religious harmony, it is always the believers that get hated
i guess that is why anything man does that seems beneficial is actually killing u slowly as u get engulfed by the fact tht u are digging ur own grave.
look at how earth is dying, LIVE EARTH - spread awareness but they used so much electricity for the concerts and the world to watch the programmes on tv and the audience left a pile of litter after the concert.
sad isn't it.

it takes more faith to believe there is no God.

what's worse there are hypocrites in this world.
they just want to get the best of both worlds. seriously no one servant can serve to master and love them equally.
eventually u will love one and despise the other.
yeah and i am bringing up this point as some hypocrites that actually bother reading here and perceives me as a public defame although i did not state the name nor any of his/her distinguishing appearances and just providing the full story. while he/her on the other hand makes fun of not me but religion publicly. and he talks nicely to me one-on-one about religion. what is this? i have to ask. and he claims to be 'giving mutual respect' when talking to me. gosh i guess ur criticism has totally negate all of your 'mutual respect'.

yeah come back to my blog and leave a remark. im waiting for your story Mr Anonymous or should i call u 'Anoynomous' , the way u spell ur online persona.

2007-07-22T21:31:00.000+08:00

adapted from shirleen's blog (:

emo
&messy weekgosh i really cant remember much
Wednesdayhmmm school was ... cant remeber much
besides the fact that my soul is fading away from the lessons
lately my studies are rather dull and going down
and i have the freaking Ngee Ann Poly competition thingy
go there do circuits ._. and anyway at least the 4 teams in Xinmin won the top 4 awards (:yaye
a plague and $25 coupon for popular!
yeah its little but hey its still victory
trophy goes to the school :/anyways before i forget ...
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TECKGUAN!

Thursday
wow first thing in class we got scolded for our Racial Harmony Day Mascot as it was not submitted although it was done
Mrs Wong was really angry la she was fuming
well her anger really made me rethink about my irresponsibilities especially when she said that word like at least 5 times
i lost her yellow umbrella on homecoming day
i did not plan the Chinese New Year skit and made the class do cleaning
yeah so i guess im a very horrible person
yeahs i wrote that in my personal letter to Mrs Wong but later in the day she was ok le (:
yay hahaha
anyways yeah many conflicts happened today and i really dont want to mention it its too personal la and i guess life is never the perfect carefree one

FRIDAY
so disappointed in myself la was supposed to outreach and i had to change back and leave it at home, the survey forms that is.
so sad la so i went for NEA pm instead yeah and revival from ytd (:
after that was off to play LAN with zhicai :/
learning how to play i mean :xhaha gosh O Levels!
then he satyed over and yd and desmond came over
desmond fixed my guitar yay can anyhow jam le hahahahaok lameness

Saturday
SERVICE was great!
haha the unexpected happened and yeah quite disappointed with turn up lorh but nvm there's still next week amen.
haha shall pray and fast for that (:
well i missed a bit of the sermon and the schedule was a bit changed to suit the pre-believers
so i was a bit lost la and did not really feel the presence until altar call
YAYE FOR LJ! after that was to LAN again gosh my pocket has a huge hole so has my academics
ahhhh!
after that went home with desmondkwok and haha talked alot of rubbish
yeah i love my SHEEPS
disgusting thing i saw when i was going home was a tomboy girl scratching or should i say even digging her butt when walking
ewww SICK

Sunday
really hate myself todaymade so many mistakes
left home to go study with desmond yeongdeng yeshen and martin then when i left and almost near the bus stop i realised i forgot to bring my walletwent back and realised only one home is my dad and he's sleeping ring twice no one came and i was like so paiseh la cos i had keys but i did not realise until i just try try see have anot open the door get my wallet only to find out that my dog ran out of the house and went downstairs :/
had to bring him back la troublesome then i can finally leave in peacegosh what an exciting life
haha studied and did AMATHS
yay me

2007-07-17T23:39:00.000+08:00

VARIETY POST!
got tagged by the hamster to do this haha

Please read the rules first: Each player of the game starts off by giving 6 weird things about themselves. People who get tagged needs to write in a blog of their own 6 weird things as well as state the rules clearly. In the end, you'll need to choose 6 people to be tagged and list their names.

1. i am a person who is very possesive! for example personal space, friends' time and attention is mine for grabs :x

2. haha i used to be a vulgar and violent kid in kindergarten (imagine me doing evil deeds in the PAP kindergarten uniform)

3. i eat very little although i get hungry quite easily :/

4. my left pinky has 4 phalanx bend marks instead of 3 and i have a single eye-lidded right eye accompanied with a double eye-lidded left eye

5. its hard for me to make friends but easy for me to follow up on the friend

6. my face doesnt express my feelings (i look angry when im bored or just thinking)

those who will suffer the same fate as me:
anybody
everybody
whoever
you
him
her

(: just do it if you are bored or have nth to post

ok back to headline news...

wow God is great haha ytd i went to WAM night and wow the 2+ hr of praise and worship really refreshed me (: haha
first time there and met lots of people from different HOPE sections such as tertiary and adults
had O Level Chinese Listening Comprehension la and it sucked
ambiguous answers and questions and stupid 1/2 an hour of waiting for the listening was horrid
they played classical music that charmed us to sleep and there was this irritating kukubird song
"KUKU' it went countless times
before that i went with desmondmark and his friend to see guitar!
ahh i am such a newbie when it comes to the guitar and i wana learn it! badly >:/
anyways i bought guitar strings while desmond bought an offstage purpose guitar
heehs shall borrow it and play xD
he bought it at bras basar shpping centre
and i hate the toilet there la
the public toilet was like on 1st floor so i was at 3rd floor lazy to go down horh i went to the tenant's and staff toilet la and guess wad the door when closed locked itself and the mirror was stained with brownish red stuff which looked like blood la
SO SCARY
i tried to exit but the door was locked so i panic and when i got out i ran away in fear :/

haha anyways today is great
did not knw that there would be physcs prac la when i was supposed to meet the desmonds for shpding ): so i was so upset and my heart keep going "no i dont want to go for phy prac" and guess wad
hallelujah it was cancelled haha
anyway so happy but played basketball
me and zhicai were like extras :x we cant play well la and we dont play bball de
im very slow moving and lousy ):
ah well have to appease to them :/
after that zhicai stayed over here at my home for a while and we chatted for quite a long while
(: fellowship bonding haha

sleepy and there's stupid cca tmr
i hate it
hate N2D run too

2007-07-15T11:37:00.000+08:00

PHOTO-TASTIC POST!

Friday was all about Xinfony (and the stupid English test :/)

haha it was very cool that almost the whole class turned up for XINFONY!

haha went there with alvin and luke and met up with 404!

well rather awkward but yeah

anyway the performances were a variety

and there was a Willy Wonka song haha!

well i have never actually sat down and listened to good music for quite a while so yes the band was awesome!

it was also cool that the band members stepped down on that occasion, it was like such a big deal!

haha ok aftetr xinfony was photo-taking and cam-whoring session

At First there was Sir Mervin Timothy ....

Then came the others

in preparation of the real class photo

1st SHOT with MISS TEE w/o band members

2nd SHOT different poses (:

3rd SHOT with Luke and Alvin w/o Miss Tee and Band members

Now with Band members

Seperation ):

After that it was off to to Prata House with Desmond Luke and Alvin hahas

i had no appetite and ate only 1 egg prata and i almost exploded ):

no im not on a diet im just a small eater
after that it was to desmond's house to stay over and watch the passion of christ

his parents are such nice people and they are rather close

i feel so mean not talking to my parents often ):

PRATA HOUSE!

New RC cam-whoring

SATURDAY

woke up late!

10.30 and was supposed to meet junlong at dhoby at 11.30!

the thing i was still at desmond's house and had to rush home to wash up and rush to dhoby

had only enough credit for 1 ride so i walked home from desmond's

and gosh i hate private estates as they take up a lot of space and made me make beat around the estaes to get home :/

a 20 minutes walk in short pants and my adidas shoes!

WEIRD LA!

ok haha anyways service was really impacting and so was the worship and farewell at old RC

well and i was very mean .... shan't elaborate ):

learnt to be less emotonal and more sensitive towards others amen!

well shifting was horrid ):

had to shift furniture to the new RC quite a distance away :/ anyways its much nicer at the new RC but im not sure about the accessiblity

dinner shared with guozhang again haha

then it was to play LAN

dota is fun now i guess :X haha

guozhang and i were crazy when playing battlefield haha crashing and dying plentifully

farewell old RC hello new RC

2007-07-12T23:11:00.000+08:00

gosh my dog pooped and it stinks the whole house!
haha anyways much to share

wednesday was great i shared to class that im TIMOTHY haha and yes its my baptism name so u can call me TIMMY TANG now haha ok lame.
well i hope they will be more open to christianity as the KINGDOM OF GOD is open to all who want to accept (:
yeah they said im very 'holy' but actually its just that HOPEchurch really breed good fruits and have quality teachings amen? haha yeah we serve so much man (:
anyways studies seem to be going down a bit but i will work hard rahh!

oh yeah im appointed to be 1/2 amaths rep haha and the other 1/2 is none other than miss vanessa soh. at first i saboed her then in the end i kena saboed too so we both became the reps haha
and i solved a trig identities qn mr alan did not solve wahaha supremecy! ok fine i guess he dint do that qn but still .... its a first step!

also i noticed that gangsters do have qualities too
hate to admit it but im rather introvert as i love to keep quiet and observe humans ):
yeah whereas gangsters speak their mind and are more open-minded
they can be good people if they learn to control themselves actually
i need to be more open :/
ah well XINFONY is tomorrow so jiayou to XINMIN SYMPHONIC BAND!

as i blog i love to sing songs! (: haha secret exposed

Bible study time here i come (: heehs

2007-07-09T22:03:00.000+08:00

gosh my archive is full of junky swearings and ranting
i have to admit i have changed a lot after going to church (:
haha its funny how u read ur archive and u go :
"hey is that what i really wrote? gosh i dint rwalsie i was such a spoiled ass last time :/"

oh well monday blues .....

2007-07-09T21:52:00.000+08:00

Gosh i feel so still
i need to pray and grow!
Bible awaits me now.

by the way i realised in every life there are difficulties.
no one can escape this sad truth. :/

HAPPY BIRTHDAY VANESSA!
16 years and counting :X
one more member to club 16 haha :3

2007-07-08T18:50:00.000+08:00

YESTERDAY WAS MY 3 MONTH ANNIVERSARY OF CHRISTIAN LIVING!
woots haha there were planes flying ard and there were concerts all over the world for me wahaha xD

anyways im really a blessed child of God as we received another xinminian accepting Christ atyesterday's service amen and PRAISE THE LORD!
although lately my spiritual life was getting low but cg pm and service really resounded into my mind about spiritual dryness
gosh i was really touched by the sermon and i will grow more and correct my bad ways amen
during the altar call i saw so many people willing to accept Christ that i was really touched to tears as i recalled my convertion and a lot of memories .
GOD IS DEFINITELY GREAT!
im such a fortunate kid as i really felt God conveying a message of me to have more faith in him during cg pm and service
i felt his presence in all 3 events during that week and i was really touched and almost cried la

amazing grace!

anyways stayed over at gideon's and hah he was very nice to us and yeah he is great. heehs
im really determined to grow more and be a CL for xinmin after talking to him
alvin too was very influential to me and really talked sense to me after cg and i guess its just the start but after really reading the word of God im really inspired

for those who face the same problems that i did, spiritual dryness and lack of faith may i share a verse:
Matthew 24:13
"but he who stands firm to the end will be saved."

lets persevere and pass the test that was promised after the camp and grow together
because in God we are strong and nothing is impossible

2007-07-05T22:51:00.000+08:00

gosh i lost 2kg ):
yes its saddening bcos i dont wana shrink :X
GROWTH!

2007-07-05T20:49:00.000+08:00

waooooo long time since i last blogged :X
many things happened cant really state down all but each had its impact on to me

MONDAY
parts of previous post
alvin and desmond kwok were to meet me at yck mrt at 11.30 and guess who was last .... ME
hahas well no surprise to those who really know me well :X
yeah i was late but i was late for a reason, i wrote him a nice message and its confidential sorry but i hope it really touched him (:
yeah and we went to grassroots club to play pool and arcade but the arcade machines were sent off when we arrived! bummer
so yeah then it was to pool, and haha gosh im really bad at it but dumb luck really visit me often (:
anyways ate lunch at the naked fish shoppe, interesting name huh
and well the fish and chips were nice but so small! ):
yeah after that it was to meeting and i guess i really need to improve on my ministry
im seriously lagging but hah i will work hard
well played dai-di or however u spell it and guess what loser eats bread spread with mustard, pepper, chilli sauce, butter, tobasco sauce!, and water to make it soggy
thank God i did not lose in any of the 4 rounds so i dint have to eat the breads (:

Tuesday
slacked a lot in school im really losing track and wondering off the study plan ):
after school was off to the coffeeshop and i could not eat cos im fasting. im serious
while i was there with the gym forum peeps, i started to wonder off and thought a lot about how i should have evax instead of jus hanging around and day dreaming
and coindence man most of my contacts came at almost the same time but i did not approach them as they were with their friends oh no chance wasted!
):

Wednesday
boring school
after that went straight home and did a bit of maths and slacked a lot on the net ):
but hey i did my maths a bit!
yeah and then it was to cg
desmond kwok could not make it ): but he dreamt that he was with us haha
awesome man (:
and yeah many others werent there but although the turn up was small but i was really touched by the Lord and that really spurred me on (: amen
then it was to finally eat hokkien mee!
it was about 8+ that i ate and my previous meal b4 that was at 11+
): im not anorexic
alvin really woke me up with his conversation and wow im really driven to work hard and improve on myself
i love the church!

TODAY
was caught by mr alan today for not finishing my homework!
darn his eyes are so big and intimidating haha but he was a nice guy
anyways haha im such a naughty boy le la how how
so after school i went with the guys to eat except that i cant eat ):
but its for a good cause and i'll never regret
so yeah i just hanged around until 4+ then i met up with demond kwok and gosh basketball ><
i cant play basketball seriously and my cg love it and i guess its time to pick up the sport ._.
seriously i was horrible and yeah playing against bball players was a nightmare ):
haha ok exaggerating but badminton is fun rahh!
talked to him a bit and yeah he found out im his shepherd and now haha he already suan me and threaten me le
well i guess i was like that to my shepherd too haha
what goes around comes around ._.
anyways 9.00pm show is on must watch byeeeeeeeeeeeeee

i'm high in vitamin M! and dont u forget it!

2007-07-02T09:50:00.000+08:00

its hard to juggle 2 blogs! well my spiritual blog shall only be of content that is too emotional and not advice for others to read

anyways im so HAPPY!
guess wad happen on saturday, the KOG grew!
and amongst the new arrivals is a xinmin guy!
one step closer to realising my vision of a xinmin cg
haha well alter im meeting him and alvin to follow up and i am so excited!
anyways we met him on wednesday and he converted on saturday and seriously he is the most responsive guy i met whom i tried to SOW on. the rest were like avoiding me or worse even persecute me :x
it takes time ofr the harder ones but nonetheless i'll still pray for them

oh yeah yesterday i watched the passion of the christ! and it was really touching and a bit gore but it really widened my understanding of how he died and what happened before he was to be crucified
he prayed for those who persecuted him and he even touched the lives of those who disliked him initially
for instance he healed a soldier's ear which was cut off by his disciple and he touched the life of one of the men that was crucified with him for committing a crime and that guy acknowledge him as the Messiah and accepted him in just an instance!
wow its truely amazing how Jesus's life had really fulfilled all prophecies made like his bones were not broken and and when he was stabbed by a spear water and blood gushed out and many more
my faith and trust was astronomical last night and it will be for the rest of my life!

actually now that i let out my feelings i believe i have no use of a second blog :x i mean i'll have to paste the same stuff there and ... haha im just too lazy
haha well i wont close it but i will update it not very frequently

(: SOWING!

oh yeah GST is now 7% ):
and my slippers just spoilt last night oh no!
ah well at least i would be helping the needy by paying 2% more :S

2007-06-30T00:28:00.000+08:00

upset but turned out good day
i did badly for my chinese o level oral
devastating but i have only myself to blame
i was shivering like crazy during the passage reading and my conversation was just screwed up
it is VERY UNNATURAL for me to speak in mandarin formally to china people.
anyways im really thankful for shirleen yeongjing and vanessa for helping me out with my oral
i guess i have to work hard for my other subjects then which is much more understandable to me la

played lan for the first time and i did pretty ok although i was horrible but its a first!
dota is rather fun actually haha but after O levels then we see how
met a new desmond and haha he is a very nice and friendly person

talked to mum when i got back late in the night and she did not scold me for flunking my oral instead she really encouraged me to perservere and study hard and i promised her great results!

(:

2007-06-28T17:41:00.000+08:00

long time since i last blogged and lately i've been facing a quite a few prosecutions but nevertheless i will resist and 'ren' till the end for i know that i will be saved and i will grow.

yeah lately i've got the feeling that i dont belong to those people anymore
they have the EQ value of negative value man.
it is very provocative if you group up and start teasing not me but the one i love.
i hate it when those bunch of people who have known each other for more years than i know them and they use that to go against me.
am i such a bad or lousy person or is it that those people are trying to be funny.
its like i dont even know them anymore.
so now i guess i am a different person and they just cant accept me.
i know im not really outgoing and make friends easily but at least i do respect every one of them and treat them like friends.

yeah those were my first few days in school after the june hols but i guess that my june hols were better days.
been busy this few days and dint really go online.
overdued homework, replenished stack of homework chinese O's oral is just tmr
life is getting really hectic man
i miss the holidays man at least it wouldnt be 53 days away from prelims. ):

i wana do my best and nothing less.

2007-06-23T22:01:00.000+08:00

haha finally hit my first hundredth post and it was my previous post that was 100th :X
anyways this blog is really being filtered
church and spiritual post and sent to my other blog so it would not bother some people who are non-believers

anyways this would be the place i spam all my rantings and emotions out la and of course daily stuff
as a matter of fact i have not finished my homework and im so gonna be killed
im down with school reopening blues! ):
yeah today i didnt studay again so tmr would be studying at amk macs with hopees!
yay study study study time! i shant slack i want to go to a good JC! RAHH!

2007-06-23T00:40:00.000+08:00

Your True Birth Month Is October

Selfish
Decisive
Romantic
Emotional
Concerned
Daydreamer
Sympathetic
Just and fair
Loves to chat
Bad tempered
Loves outdoors
Very opinionated
Strong clairvoyance
Attractive and suave
Easily lose confidence
Always making friends
Does not lie or pretend
Touchy and easily jealous
Inner and physical beauty
Treats friends importantly
Seldom helps unless asked
Easily hurt but recovers easily
Soft-spoken, loving and caring
Loves those who love in return
Spendthrift and easily influenced
Does not care of what others think
Loves to travel, the arts and literature

What's Your True Birth Month?

Your Birthdate: January 24

You understand people well and are a natural born therapist.A peacemaker, people always seem to get along when you are around.You tend to be a father or mother figure to friends, even to those older than you.You enjoy your role, and you find that you are close to many people.
Your strength: Your devotion
Your weakness: Reliance on others for happiness
Your power color: Lilac
Your power symbol: Heart
Your power month: June

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

well this is what my birthday speaks of me and its quite true la but its sad that i live up to most of the bad parts that are mentioned and im really disappointed ):
i feel like im not doing ok i always feel there i can do better than what i am now
no self esteem ):

i need to talk

2007-06-22T22:41:00.000+08:00

i am sooo frustrated by the guy i tried to outreach la!
sickening and driving me to my grave la
i need someone to talk to as of now
i guess i should stop posting my spiritual stuff here as i believe that more of that 'anoynomous' people would come and yaddah yaddah their fat trap about what they feel and go against me
why cant they just get a blog and post all their personal stuff there instead of dumping it here on my blog

i shall get a new blog for my spiritual growth and stuff (:

here shall be just my life. and thats all.

my spiritual blog from now on is http://dearlordwehavetotalk.blogspot.com/ (:
if u dont mind reading all my personal and christian stuff go ahead (:

2007-06-21T23:28:00.000+08:00

pfft at blogger's lousy memory
their 'remember me' function is totally useless
anyways was flying about the net and just landed here as i was bored haha
i only blog when ikm bored :X haha

well today was a nothing nothing day
went out to watch fantastic4 and wow i envy the silver surfer!
cool movie but i shant spoiler (: anyways yeah my blog is so photoless
i need to bring my camera around nowadays!
haha and im very attached to my psp now ok

yeah homework sector is still stagnant i dint study for 2 days le! will die de la!
no school pls no school pls!
my life is a nightmare that i cant wake up from
and its a conspiracy for me to get a good haircut i am chao botak now la
yeah i am now NS boy as claimed by others ):
actually its almost a week since i cut my hair le
but its still short very short!

i wana be the biggest star in the night sky!

2007-06-20T20:11:00.000+08:00

long time since i last blogged but this week is the last week of the holidays and yeah as usual every student would be mourning over this bad news
MT Oral is nearing second by second ):
and i hate Cheena
doomed anyways this week is rather fruitful i actually started to study although the pace was extremely slow but nevertheless it is still better than not studying

Sunday was erm still slack day haha yeah met desmond for shepherding session which i was late la bad me and yeah he taught me how to SOW

Surface
Open
Word base

very meaningful and i learnt a lot yeah
cold rash attack at macs ): too cold for me i seriously need to reconsider bringing a jacket everywhere i go

Monday
well was to call contacts to study with us at hougang point macs but yeah turn up was horrid
but yeah i actually started on my Maths and found out that i forgot lots of stuff ):
nothing much to blog about besides this for the day
practically morning was spent snoozing
afternoon at macs studying
while night was go home play xD
oh just remembered went out in the night rushing to amk hub to watch fantastic4 but missed it ): so i left while my sis went out with her frens for supper
and met yeongdeng and michelle on my way back (:

Tuesday oh gosh was it a long day
went to hg point macs again but change of plans to outreach at xinmin haha surveyed many ppl and i really hope they are responsive
yeah then it was to lunch and then back to the macs to study with yongkang and desmond's contact and yeah the tables there were lousy and the atmosphere there was noisy thank God for yongkang (: he brought us to his condo and (: nice place to study and live haha.
after that went to weilun's place to study s'more and stay over haha dint bring extra clothes so i was stinky ):

Wednesday hah we slept at 5-6am from ytd and slept to 1-2 like that
haha and i was so dirty la went for lunch immediately wanted to go home and shower.

school's opening soon! :O

2007-06-16T23:00:00.000+08:00

oh my GOD! mood spoiler man
ok let me first address that mr/miss anonymous person (tagboard)
btw well done in trying to spell ur undercover name
and yeah i am not flaming but if u do want to act sophisicated pls do so somewhere elsewhere
its just that well its my blog and i dont know how u got here so u must know me someway and i believe a talk to me directly would be of as u say it 'much help'
i cant imagining myself to talk to someone who think he/she is 'anoynomous'

Firstly as mentioned in my post on Tuesday June 5th 2007
yeah u dont like it then dont read it and close the window

Secondly i understand ur point of the argument but i had already stated that it was hard for me to feel rejected especially when they leave like within 5 mins from their entrance. well im not sure if you would understand it but judging by the way u try to conceal ur identity i guess u have forgotten the fact that i am able to track ur IP address and ban you but lets just see what u have installed for me ok.

Thirdly, i so did not as u mention it 'force' that guy i was willing to send him out of the church if he wanted to and i talked to him politely. well i dont expect u to know or anything and yeah pls do investigate before u interrogate yeah?

Lastly imposing my religion to others is not a crime and i did not 'force' him. in the end i was more hurt then he was. and also it is more of the experiencing it urself so my part is to try to bring them to church but in the process its best to share about yr own experience and what the religion is about as bg info. so get the picture? brush up on your argument.

ANYWAYS CAMP IS OVER! ):

well camp was definitely a great experience its my first church camp! amen!

well i've learnt a lot about the seed concept and it was definitely relevant to my saturday experience of outreaching and i am so inspired to to outreach even more despite any opposition i face as these are challenges! sermons preached really touched me and yeah got a bit grumpy when i was tired but luckily i kept it in. anger management pls

Sunday was go there to help the camp com ppl day
yeah and i really enjoyed helping them out man (:
lazy bum no more i guess but yeah learnt new skill on how to tie waterbombs using those drink packets very fast (: and drama rehearsal!
NorthEast drama scriptwriter and oragnisers/planners are awesome man! very creative! and haha spoiler before i reach the last day segment, we won the drama! NORTHEAST ALL THE WAY!

first day of camp was games already
hah i was in the black pearl team. there were teams such as endeavour, empress and flying dutchman. haha all realted to pirates!
yeah and then it was dinner and praise and worship and sermon!
then in the night we just crapped around
well first night no photos heheh sorry cam was in bag which was in the hall where we were not allowed to go when in games

second day the life changer
mainly it was the most spiritual day
so spiritual that we overshot the night games part and continued in prayer till like 11-12 and man it was really awesome
morning was the lesson on the emerging seed generation theme and then in the afternoon is a workshop which i got pioneering so i have to pioneer more xinmins to come to church yeah.
and after that it was dinner and then somemore praise and worship and teachings
one of the teaching really touched my heart and i just cried and got motivated to win the school for God.

heh me and yeshen good frens for 3 weeks

alvin annoyed by weilun's joke

shepherd and sheep at war :X

spastic much.

caught in the act.

Third day haha GAP! God's Amazing Plan

well we won the drama which we did on the wonders of Australia during the GAP and yeah more teachings that really made me understand more of my role and motivate me.
CG uniform was shrek ears and the ever-united whole of Northeast participated in the drama in our new Northeast shirt! yay us.

hongkong delegates! haha superheroes

CG! NEA1

INFORMAL!

SIR Gideon and me

Last day boohoo ):
i had to march in school uniform yeah to represent xms and yeah i missed yeongdeng's performance which was funny la ):
i wana stay longer .

more pics to come

2007-06-09T23:19:00.000+08:00

was blog-hopping and landed here so yeah haha (ok that was lame)
i found out that my blogging style is all talk no picture haha true blame me for not having a phone with a decent camera

actually my life is not all sunny-sided and that's bad
yeah being an aquarian(aquarius) i am emotional ):
yeah and i was really shattered by this setback

well i tried outreaching as mentioned in the previous post and it failed terribly
i was faced with lots of conflicts along the way
firstly it was the soccer incident that clashed with my plans
he wanted to go kick ball and then meet me after that but he would miss the service which was from 12-2.30
so i was frustrated and asked him to the free shrek3 movie cos i had free tix not sneak in!
yeah but he watched it already
yeah so i was too frustrated and left la
not to mention his 'policy' proposed to me that i should bring friends that he knows to go along with us
so i left to meet des and pete to go for pm then wfl then shrek
(btw it happened ytd)

yeah and surprisingly he agreed to meet me at dhoby
so yay i thot i would be able to bring him to church la
was supposed to bring him with des but des was late so i called alvin
btw i did not mention abt the church part i only told the one i tried outreaching to abt going shopping
so yeah guess wad he actually brought our classmates along and worse of all neither of them were keen on christianity
so eventually the grp kept getting bigger and bigger and i could not break him off from the grp
thank God, he and some other werent hungry and left the others to go walk walk la and alvin brought them to nexus
well the other guy was anti-christ while the one i tried outreaching to was appaled and wanted to talk to me about what i did
blah blah blah my explanations and sharing were in vain
it was only until they left nexus that i realised that he is somebody who would follow the crowd
he was shocked that the church youths were so enthusaistic when it came to worship and praise and yeah his parents are pro-buddhist/taoist s he as the only child was under tremendous pressure
well he was the only contact that came into my mind and God created so many opportunities for me to outreach to him but i failed them all
i guess my first mission was horrible however under this difficulties i pulled through and thanks to help of alvin and desmond i had the courage to at least bring them to church althoguh they were only there for 5 mins
i feel that i have to grow emotionally stronger and spiritually wiser in order to succeed and i can do it with God and FOR GOD!

sorry for the long post but yeah i guess i strained our friendship and yeah even worse they might get a worse perspective abt christianity
i dont mind the strained r/ship what i mind is their perspective towards christianity
):

for people who think christians are pestering people to go to church and convert please think again
i cried more than 5 times in service because of the failed outreach
do you think those guys cried or were hurt as much as i was
the outreacher has so much stress to plan on how to outreach
this is a friend to friend outreach can u imagine a outreach to strangers

2007-06-08T22:29:00.000+08:00

looong day man
i need rest and finally my 'holidays' or what that is left of it has just started
feels great to be emancipated from all my school events for a while
liberation RAWR!
well went for wfl and yeah although it was just a chapter worth of teaching but it made me realise that it is hard to be perfect and sinless just like Jesus. Amen.
well i am really drained but yeah i feel great to be under God's wings
after wfl it was off to vivo to catch my free shrek 3 movie haha
had complementary popcorn and drinks haha
yeah watched with desmond shaun and surprisingly shiokping haha
she was totally obssesed with the gingerbreadman and puss in boots
it was a nice movie haha although the storyboard was weird but shrek never fails to deliver entertainment

Great is the Lord

2007-06-07T21:37:00.000+08:00

ok time for me to blog and yeah i have comments that my blog is boring and yeah they came from me :X
haha ok anyways lets get serious for now

well i am pressured to outreach la and yeah i have to pioneer it so im like :O
well i cant leak out much so i can only describe my emotions ):
i tried outreaching to a fellow fren and it is rather weird la because he was the only one i could think of and GOD has been creating a lot of opportunities for me outreach but i have failed every opportunity because im a loser ):
come to think of it, it puts me in a bad position as u cant just ask directly la u must slowly drop hints here and there and then share ur testimony which is very little for me.
well desmond is a nice shepherd who is behind me all the way yeah and well im rather relieved after i have typed all this out of my heat

on the side note, my life is ever mundane and yeah late for second time
5 mins late will cause me 30 mins of my lesson time and it was physics la
one of my weakest subject
anyway this world is getting smaller by the minute, i am seeing old friends more and more often and they are like related to my closer friends some way or other
OMG i cant describe ok i have expression difficulties

yesterday was fun hah yeah, not just according to pete
haha well went to freedy's condo for cg awesome yeah
well made a lot of noise especially me la :X guilty
so yeah i feel paiseh la kena scolded by one of the residents
heeh but yeah (: happy

well my life is a roller coaster man
ups and downs and loop-the-loops
speaking of roller coasters well had word for life on monday ytd and tmr
well one lesson on fear was cool man showed us a final destination movie death scene which of course involved a roller coaster accident
well word for life really woke me up and yeah i wana grow in GOD even more amen!
yeah time for bible reading (:

my life is an ac current

2007-06-05T19:33:00.000+08:00

bloggers. many ppl say that we are ppl who post rubbish onto the web either with our 'everyday' life or just making sarcastic remarks at someone else.

my advice:
get a life. if u dislike what u see on the blogs just close the window and move on in life. and stop being stereotypical. not all bloggers do that. even powers of the world have blogs (some president or whatever post in the government in some country, go research.)

2007-06-03T21:35:00.000+08:00

oh no its june already!
ah well much to blog but can remember a single thing!
well lately a war is going on in my head and yeah emotions are my weapons and its mervin vs evil mervin
yeah strange as it seems but i behave differently from what i think
i have lots of saddistic thoughts! oh no :X
yeah so im trying to be a nicer person yeah (:
looking back on my life i feel that compared to others im always a lousy person who cant accomplish much and always an average or even below average person ):
but yeah no need to cheer me up as i believe in the day that i will be able to do great things and my faith is in the Lord. yeah
so haha got a new PSP too haha but it is not that significant in my life
i mean theres more to life than gadgets right.
well i really hope i would be a nicer person :/
well school's as usual and it sucks! big time. remedials are much worse than normal lessons!
3 shops open in the canteen only! whats there to eat man. and we are not allowed to go out of school to eat or it would be " a week of school from 7.30am to 8pm" as quoted by the sickening neopet thingy.
bahhs! i'd rather stay at home and accompany bosco

imperfection lives within me. ):

2007-05-26T17:14:00.000+08:00

9/10 way to my 100th post!

well the last few weeks were horrid for me
although my exams had ended two weeks ago, this two weeks were stressful with chinese intensives and the constant reminder that the Chinese O Levels is just around the corner!
yeah and i dont think i might get an A1 ): which i want so dearly la

ok well the stress made me fall sick numerously this month and yeah currently i am fine but on thursda night i had fever and no kidding man it was horrible. when i slept on my bed i was so hot but i kept shivering and when i got up my bed was all warm la ): also had bad cough on thurs
yeah so im restricted to eating non oily and fried food and NO CHICKEN! sadded
well now i am healed and thank god i am feeling better. now all that is left is 1 day and a few hours left to my O's so i have to pia as much as possible. heh anyways i lost 3kg in 3 days isnt it amazing!

yeah special thanks to yongkang and desmond for taking care of me while i was sick at rc ytd
and thanks shirleen for all the help and support u have given me for the o's, not to mention the nice card and the ferrero rocher! thanks to all who have gave the O's takers support and the xinmin chinese department for their dedication!

wish me luck ok

2007-05-24T17:05:00.000+08:00

89TH POST! SO THAT MEANS PREVIOUS WAS LUCKY 88! HAHA

haha random so yeah mainly my ojective to come here is to say GOD IS GREAT!
so yeah he really did heal me and i am a very blessed person
how i ever i just keep falling sick again and again
well O's is coming and well im so unprepared and sickly
i believe God will heal me right?

anyways yeah im so ): la
i have lost my strength and now i keep slouching and walking slowly la.
intensives are really great and Mr Tang is just simply a good teacher.
he has really helped me in my understanding lots (: but the intensives are draining me but its definitely worth it.
well many ppl ard me are too falling sick i pray to God that they will be healed ok(:
good luck to Chinese O's takers! and take care ppl

i think i left a wrong impression to many ):

2007-05-22T18:39:00.000+08:00

): is the atmosphere i'm in.
CHINESE O's ):
im so sadddddd la and i keep whining
was super pissed off by smokers la. eating in coffeeshop then one big gush of smoke overwhelm me ):
cowards they are they breathe the filtered smoke while we innocent non smokers breathe in their intoxicating fumes and suffer asthma or even develop cancerous cells ):
waste their money buying cigarettes, also known as cancer in a box.
stuffing the sticks into their mouths and blowing it, they think its soo coool ._.

well at least i have one good news!
i was water-baptised on 20th MAY 2007!
my special day haha!
hehs i am willing to serve God even more and better. (:
proud to be God's child. (:

and oh yeah HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO DEBRA!

2007-05-18T21:40:00.000+08:00

FIRST POST IN MAY!
hahs well i was busy 'studying' for exams lorh. *hides the doodles in my foolscap*
well what can i say but O LEVEL CHINESE IS LIKE 10 DAYS AWAY
and i suck in chinese. A LOT.
how? well hmm miracles do happen right? dont they?
._. im so jaded from the mundane life of a typical singaporean student

well guess whats surprises of the MYE!

A2 FOR GEOG!
B3 FOR AMATHS
A2 FOR EMATHS (could have gotten an A1)
B3 FOR HIST (only to be ruined by my failed SS to bring it to be an overall of C5)
well L1R5 is a measely 21. :X wasted wasted wasted!

gonna pia chinese. actually HAVE TO pia chinese if not im doomed

my life is such a mess.

2007-04-26T18:33:00.000+08:00

wheeeeeeewhooooooooooo
ok haha anyways missed out on blogging about ytd and yea
heavy load of homework can?
eng compre which i have yet to do which was overdued but heh not gone through yet
then its maths as usual a never ending supply of schoool's papers
then ss which is overdued for 2 weeeks!
yea so lets get the ball rolling with ytd morning
well booring lessons as usual and woah Ms Mabel/(Mable) was a Miss Singapore participant 5 years ago?
haha cool and controversial
anyways yeah timeskip to my oral
and of all the teachers its MR CHOW! ): ): (notice the double unhappy faces)
yeah so did rather horribly hopefully a mriacle would save me from this
anyways yeah was suppose to meet kaide after the oral which he was 1st candidate while i was 5th and yea cudden find him la so i left with old time bestie ZHIJIAN!
so erm rushed home to bathe and rush to rc la to meet church frens
so yea expected i was late by 30 mins!
yea was forgiven phew man!
yea went shop and save for steamboat stuff and yea i broke a bottle of sweet and sour sauce that stinks! ):
fortunately the shop adn safe staff were very nice and did not ask me to pay for it!
THANKS ALVIN for clearing up the situation (:
yea so had steamboat and crapped around singing and dancing then it was 10 and had to go home
father fetched me home and stupid traffic jam almost caused me to puke the food
so thats a bout all!

well today is rather bizarre
kaide is lame can? he msged me ytd swimming tmr
and yea i messaged him back serious anot and he did not message me until i got to school and he approached me and said yea serious ._.
sometimes i wonder if he has a brain like c'mon la 1 sms is not that expensive right so yea they went swimming while im stuck here at home
then lessons went by and mrs lim's lesson so hilarious!
405 made a fake newspaper article about a teacher ripping open a students mouth haha so lame but hilarious
yea she wants to keep it in her folder to reminisce
well after school was lunch time and that was when i found out that kaide psed me to congratulate vanessa and left with khee ern
wtf la.
then he and shannon went to swim together
two of them. swimming. together. at BrokeBack Swimming Complex.
bahhs at kaide!

2007-04-24T20:26:00.000+08:00

went out for a uber duber super duper heavy lunch cum dinner at sakae sushi with mak ys ck jw andrew and km xD
was last to arrive la as usual anyways yeaps buffet leh!
so eat all u can and i ove SALMON!
wants sashimi but must pay la cos its red plate only non red plates are free flow
one udon and a few fruits and iced strawberry coated in white choc!
SWEEEEEEEET! and diabetic
yea so thats a bout all besides the fact that we were supposed to study there but i guess we were too preoccupied with the eating that we oversaw the studying part
heeeehs yea so erms also realised the very unlikely bloggers in my class blog so well can?
they are like so linguistically inclined with their sweeping statements and eye-popping vocabulary and even got features on the straits times
well kinda sad here ): haha anyways interesting topics such as foreign talent, the killing in virginia tech and so on
while my blog is plainly rantings ):
heh what can i say, this is what sets me apart from the cloud and i have an opinion of my own theus making me an intellect (:
jk, seriously ...

2007-04-23T18:26:00.000+08:00

I HATE BLOGGER AND MY INTERNET TO THE MAXIMUM

cleared my previous post la i lazy to repost le so blame blogger!
anywyas doubt anyone reads here anyways

2007-04-22T11:54:00.000+08:00

heh new template
anyways lots have been happening but i till cant settle down and focus on my studies ):
church is fun and yeah i feel like a much better person
anyways i bought a new adidas bag thanks to MUM!
love her so much!
well nowadays im getting busier and busier but i kinda like it better cos i wont have an excuse to slack anymore

short post :X

2007-04-14T21:38:00.000+08:00

emo mervin is no more! (:
heehs love seems to be in the air again and yeah i am thankful to God (:
come to think of it are coincidences really planned by God? hmm interesting horh, go think abt it

anyways thursday was horrible as i had to ruh and rush but yet did not complete my hw
at all la so im like so naughty la ): o level coming le cannot like that
DIE!
heck ran 2.4km but could have done better but yeah 5th PLACE! heehs first time im fit!
haha timing was 11.04 la so lousy could have been better because from before the run i was already jelly-legged la so i was like running at half energy can
but still i will do a retest also horh my the pull up short of 1/2 more to get A
dwammit

friday is ineteresting, exlcuding the fact its friday the 13th
i wonder what if fridasy the 13th fell on a good friday? :S
anyways err yea bad start had compo test ): was suppose to plan ytd but wad was mervin doing?
his maths hw :
haiz rest of the lessons are pretty much the same old stuff - boring
so stayed back after school to finish zhonghua paper 2, xinmin paper 2 amaths papers and my essay
and oh yeah i scored 17/25 for my e hist! yaye its like i am motivated and i believe that i am not dumb anymore hahahah
well after that was off to ps to meet up with the rest of the shoppers for homecoming
yeah they finished their work unlike me ): and so yeah met them there but they had already bought the stuff so it was off to sengsong! but i had to attend for prayer meet so i left for serangoon instead
well on the mrt kd was being horny la keep peeping at sth thru a mirror and i caught him redhanded
tsk that naughty boy
prayer meet was fun although i was unwell and tired and sweatng like mad but fun
after that was lunch-cum-dinner at food court with church frens
then it was off to jubilee with kim! lol jk its jw
well he sold his jeans to fighter lol tatoos and pericings scary
well amk hub was uncovered by us and pretty much nothing worth buying
tho i may reconsider going to look at the puma bag
jw treated me dessert how sweeeeeeeet, hahs literally xD

today was horrible ok not really
had fun at homecoming but was horror wehn bringing my beautiful girlfriend home
yeah she was freaking oily and stained my pants while she sat on my lap on the bus ride home
did i mention i had to carry her the whole time - so heavy la
heh actually my girlfriend is ..............the freaking deep fryer -.-
i had never been so oilified in my enitre life sick
well umbrella escort was a success (: altho some ppl tried to steal the limelight and was no where to be seen near our class booth to help
guess he's busy with his stupid stuff
well abcdef should know who im implying about the above mentioned
and i found out that someone is a loser with girls
and i mean seriously. he lost my plate to one bish ):
ok enough talk abt homecoming i totally abhor the atmosphere as it was frecking hot and humid and stenchy
well had a haircut not m0re mogutou le! (:

2007-04-10T17:58:00.000+08:00

roller coaster ride
today is awefull, well most of it
i really hate to be associated with Mr Chow la
please la stop saying i look like him leh
do i look like a freakin weirdo who wears tight shirt and pants with a oversized chest
eew no! and yeah dont get me started on the face
seriously the only link i see between us is our eyebrows
yes i have thick eyebrows thankyou and do you think i myself like it ):
yeah please stop yeah it might seem fun for so many ppl to join in and be untied in teasing me about my so-called resemblence to Mr Chow and yeah it is also fun right to hear 40 over voices shouting yr mothers name?
pls la if u think i like being teased then well i have nothing much to say to u because i cant persuade irritating mindless ppl that they are ridiculous
think of it this way if u still cant get the message
how would you like 40 over people screaming your mothers name like they are in a concert ah?
u would feel like those ppl are crazy over ur mother and have nothing better to do
think about it morons
and yeah guessed what my fuxing father said
"take my word, your dog is getting naughty and if he doesnt behave i swear he would turn out like jack's (my previous dog murdered by the same cuprit that told me this)case and sent to SPCA to rest in peace.I already told you i am not gona take care and be responsible for ur dog anymore"
OK first of all 2 mistakes he made
firstly since when did you help take care of bosco u fuxing moron
all u did was take him out of his cage and play with him
did u clear his shit and pee? NO what u did was put newspaper over it and leave it there to stack higher and higher MORON
and the previous dog was also spoilt by u. u fed him all ur leftovers and u blamed me for feeding him huh
secondly yeah u killed the previous one and do you think i will let u kill my puppy bosco
mind you he is still a 5 months old puppy and is in the progress of potty-training and did u help at all? NO stack newspaper for all i care
well now i'm gona ask sis to not let my father near the dog anymore and yeah he dint pay for this dog it was my sis who paid for it
He thinks that he is the head of the house by default means he has the authority to kill my dog then hopefully he would realise his mistake when he becomes one
pissed off by so many ppl la cant they be rational

fuxer.

2007-04-09T18:25:00.000+08:00

80th post!
heh hehs im back again
after a long long time yeah it just speaks well of me very uncommitted haha
oh well actually there are like so many regulations and discretion u have to abide to when u blog yeah
no flaming no public defamations and yada yada ...
anyways yeah a lot has happen in my life and yeah i feel that my life is getting interesting now (:
met soooo many nice people and new friends and they treated me as one of them and never regarded me as a newbie to their fellowship!
heehs well i've accepted GOD! yeaps im Christian now interesting yeah how i was so anti-Christian last time and yeah Jesus made it through to me
yeah he blessed me so muuch and im really grateful
well yeah school's fun too i guess although i am down with the severities of MONDAY BLUES
seriously its more like a monday conspiracy to me
got up early as my father cant fetch me to school and all of the sudden i get a sharp piercng tummy ache ):
and yeah it went on during lessons and kind lao auntie sandra gave me tissues haha THANKS A LOT!
well yeah got to a cubicle to find the toilet so freckin dirty that even hand soap was decaying
oh and the water pipe above my cubicle kept fripping on me and yeah its the upstairs de matong shui la
so yucks and eew lorh next time got stomach ache auto-MC for me man!
hehs well hair is outrageously looong and i cant seem to contain my hatred for some ppl and seriously i have a split personality ): i hope i dont blow my cover lol
seriously i really abhor people who think they are very very handsome and think that they are like higher class than others
he said to me "dont sit in front of me pls i dont want to be seen with u"
yeah how fuxup can this be
oh yeah he thinks he is the so called cool person but he is just like every computer addict
ok enough of my ranting ):
oh well i can always tickle and play with bosco!
my darling puppy!
PUPPY LOVE

2007-03-31T22:58:00.000+08:00

swanky day
woke up at 6
left for hg stadium for sports day
sports day till 11+ - 12
after that it was off to the hg sports complex canteen
then off to ahem
had a nice few minutes of privacy and (:
donated to shir (: SJAB flagday
went to hg bus interchnge
met more SJABs and was extorted lol jk
then it was seperating ):
felt like a fool and was distracted
then it was to vivo with shan they all
sian told them it wud be boring
went with kd to simlim
was atked by a tranny EWWWW
then it was back home to bathe and off to GRANDPA'S BDAY!
lol forgot his age but he's alive and kicking
saw cousins
funny anctics
then back home
the end

all in a day's work and i have yet to start on my hw ):
there goes my tomorrow
dun wana wake up :S

2007-03-29T17:22:00.000+08:00

I'M DUMB!
I WISH I WERE SMART

i am academicaly impaired
yes i got full marks for the idiot test
and i almost failed a transformation test
oh god what the hell is wrong with me
i dont wana take my IQ test cos i dont want to see the single digit !

if you think i am your friend, then treat me like one

2007-03-08T16:20:00.000+08:00

OMG!
interesting day
started off wib pe andyea had to do some lame heart rate thingy for training purpose
its all bullcrap and i think only Ryan Chua would do it -.-
heh guess who asked mr tay about health and fitness again xD
so compulsive go gym still no muscle
go swimming better

slowly typing
as im eating fries so have to type wth one finger
so pls excuse my way of typing for now

anyways
had eng test compre paper of last yr's o lvl
not really that difficult but i have not done the summary as we had only 1 hr la
then it was physics ma-bleh
recess*
a maths was fun as usual omg nominate mrs lim for best teacher award xD
then it was ss -.- another sbq
then geog test omfgwtfbbq!
i studied case study Singapore China but not Japan
and guess wad came up for 25 marks ....
questions solely on japan
bullcrapped a lot hpefully marks will come along as well
e maths "the geek went overseas" hah ms kuck hilarious
and what does kuck kuck mean? sounds a bit like a duck and chicken hybrid call
cme xD nth to say
bahhs i dint thot the guys were serious abt the swimming thing today and yeah i missed out
x(
nvm if it wasnt for that i wudden have met Renfred Ng and Jason *dunnowadsurname*
from campus and project superstar respectively
and hah i deduced that
THEY SERIOUSLY NEED THE MEDIACORP MAKEUP ARTISTES
renfred hair like lion king la -.- somemore he is a bit beng de not like in the shows where he ios the perfect student kinda thing

ends here to finish my fries

2007-03-05T20:25:00.000+08:00

ok im all cheered up again
haiz homework seems to just keep piling up and i have accumulated a huge stack of notes and worksheets in just 3 months that is two to three physic books thick
and i carry it to school everyday
i have to dump those old ones into the subject files soon -.-
anyways my hair is soo long and noo they resumed the military spotcheck regime
my hair might be chopped off
bahhs i want to cut it i dont want THEM to cut it
its my hair anyways xP
anyways yeah hope my class wont get called up till forever
bahs i have yet to finish my chinese letter writing which was given a week ago and due days ago-.-
english newspaper thingy
a maths and physics ws ):
i cant believe im saying this but mr chee wud u hurry up and come back to teach us
i mean the relief is ..........
can she even teach? she is so slack and laid back
ITS OUR O LEVEL YEAR MAN! COME ON
why mus mr chee take a course this year -.- of all years
-.o i have no mood to do anything la
even my tests i do things so sloppily ._.
help! i think i gona go bonkers
stress stress
anyways played soccer this afternoon and haha suave name ah Ryan Chua
lol actually he is ok de except he keeps blabbering on and on with a conversation on the same topic, hmm lets say drinks, and yeah he can talk for 30 mins about drinks and it turns ppl off
verbal diarrhoea
and yeah other ppl i hate is
the kind that hates u for no reason and likes to influence others to hate u along with him
while the other is a bootlicker trying desperately to be liked by everyone
get a life dudes
i have an attitude and not afraid to admit
no attitude = no opinion of ur own/compromising to others excessively
attitude is not bad, its just how u use it
ok enough said i shall end here
oh btw i still cant find life's great in my dictionary ._.

2007-03-03T23:07:00.000+08:00

happy 75th post
hehs my complacency is not that bad! x3
pop the champagne lucky blog manages to reach this no. of posts b4 dying
anyways i hate myself utterly
i feel so emo when ever i think about others
how i am drifting apart from them and yea being more solitary
is life really that great?
i mean i watched the great eastern advert and y'know their slogan is life's great
i hate to be a downer but i hate my life ):
its not about my family nor friends but myself ):
anycase i shall not make ppl feel pitiful for me
i have learnt to slowly forgive however forgetting is not gona help and is not in my syllabus
firstly it deteriorates my memory and secondly arent we supposed to learn from past experiences
so why forget?
bahhs i hope ppl like me for who i am
a useless lazy bum and yeah my mum upset too
a levels result out ytd and ..........
i wish i could help and if only she would approach me ):
i'll pray hard for her
and yeah in school i gona flunk my amaths and chem test
i feel so stupid
im pathetic
i wana do well for my o's
chinese o's is like 2 months from now
and my chinese is ....
oh no i must be strong and the way im blogging is shite
feel like closing but no
i feel so contemplative now
lots of worries
i feel like hiding in a turtle shell until all this is over ):

2007-02-28T16:07:00.000+08:00

2 weeks of weirdness
firstly i really cant remember much about last week tho
anyways yesterday and today was weirdd
saw a guy carrying an op girl bag xD
today met dumdum guy who walked in the bus without closing his umbrella so yeah and he was the first to walk in
so everyone was like waiting for him to put down his bag close his umbrella walk in tap his card and pick his bag and move .... almost lost my breath there
yeah we were waiting in the rain can
then eah while in the bus going home one smelly kuku head came in and i think he has mental probs
he searched his pocket for his whistle and took it out and whistled and laughed to himself
he is the guy that goes to amk central bus stop and pretends to be a traffic police ushering the buses ._.
anyway while walking back home from the busstop today got hit by a car in the carpark
the ppl in there swapped places to drive and yea he could see me coming down the stairs which he blocked so yeah i went around it and guess wad
he reveresed without looking and yeah my arm still hurts x(
tts all (:
had lots of experiences today
getting hit by a car
spoiling 3 testtubes in chem practs
im starting to get the feeling that im not gentle :S

2007-02-19T09:30:00.000+08:00

HAPPY/JOVIAL/JOYOUS/AMUSING/FUN/GAY* CHINESE/LUNAR* NEW YEAR TO YOU!
*circle your choice

ok yea so its another long time since i last blogged so lemme get down to business

THURS!
went to watch the protege with jianwei yie sing shannon and tg ._.
heh lousy cinema nv check age wan
ok nvm forget wad i said earlier anyways i wanted to be stopped and prove that im 16! wahaha
well we met at j8 at 7.45 yea and i, without hp cos my mother reapeatedly forgot to claim back my sim card for a week, was just wondering ard when i jus saw them going up the escalator
pure instinct eh i think im psychic/psychotic*
anyways blah blah b;ah and we were at the food court
blah blah blah eating blah blah blah
and out we go when we were done
movie was at 9.45pm so yeah walked ard blah blah blah
and yeaps its time to go in
my first NC16 movie and yea someone was underaged and dressed so elderly that my grandpa looks 16 too (:
heh no no no la jk
anyways yea it was a nice first NC 16 movie and bah so many NC 16 movies are nice are out this year
so sad to those 15-going-on-16-but-not-yet-16 :P NORBIT!!!!!!!
i wana watch
oh yeah anyway the movie was very interesting yea so many things i dint noe abt drugs how it is made how it is dealt and so on
so many weird scenes like hands dropping off and moving about
stupid police shooting a metal door and bullet was deflected and flying abt hitting his allies
it was so cool the movie made me feel so afraid of going out to the outside ):
but it is only NC16 because of the drugs content
kinda true dumbasses may get the wrong message and deal with drugs

FRIDAY!
i oopsed :X two times la
someone was like stalking me when i was talking to myself and cursing ahem
so sad he must hate me a lot but nvm (: cos i hate him too
anyways bahh i hate that day
i caused the class to do area cleaning but dontcha think mrs wong is irritating
first she tells me to handle the cosplay on the 1 day from actual deadline deadline and yea fortunately it was extended
did she help? no
what was she doing? who noes.
anyway my fault my fault lorh feel so bad la
lucky not many ppl booed me phew
disputes arose when cosplay members were chosen
and yada yada
after school went out with tkd tg and andrew to buuuuugis
dint buy anthing tho -.-
so after tt went to heeren and then to far east
still dint buy anything
while tkd spent $47.60 on a car magazine ._.
me well i lent ppl money and spent a lot on food
ok $8 + on food
im suc a fatty x3

YESTERDAY/CHINESE NEW YEAR DAY1/SUNDAY*
yay i was employed to be ang pao collector today
its one day that all singles(regardless of age) rejoice!
awesome day met my cousins and yea the money
actually i dint bother much abt the money unlike prevous years as i already found out
GST varies inveresly with MY ANGPAO MONEY! ):
darn the gst!
anyways was stranded at my grandpa's house for 6 hours of nth but cards and tv ):
slept for less than 15 mins as i suffered headache due to overdose of tv :S
bad bad day
wanted to bathe and soothe my freaking annoying headache but noooooooo
sister fought with me to use
ok nvm let her use
father had to use b4 as he needed to drive his taxi
ok let him use b4 me
after he was done i was about to use guess wad
the mad lady aka my mum went in when i was about so set foot inside
i yelled at her but did she care? no
crap her la somemore when she was done
watched tv with the soundlblasters all night how do i rest for my headache
-.- $&!^$*^%*$@%&*%$!

2007-02-14T16:30:00.000+08:00

VALENTINE'S DAY! <3

ok turned sad turned happy day

well had a maths test and yeah i was so traumatised that i suffered mental block and flunked the 2 easy qns

i tried doing and mangaed to do the rest but left one part blanck as i did too slowly and hence not enough time

pissed and upset

anyways received my FIRST VALENTINE'S DAY PRESENTS!

LOVE U CLIQUE! HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!

LJ thanks for the chicken xD

i feel so bad la i received but dint give ):

many in class got emo ....

including mrs wong haiz ...

also i found little JACKY's ball! how i miss his licks and antics

what a day!

anngee cheer up! i love ur muffin even though its cold its still DELICIOUS!

last few days my aunts came over and baked tarts cookies and pastry for cny

well im addicted x( getting fat again

2007-02-11T21:01:00.000+08:00

):
awww friday was a good/bad day for me
xinmin did well for their o's and so the stress would be on this year's sec4
i'm afraid that xinmin's a maths distinction rate would be 99% next year because of me )):
im seriously slacking and yeah i was very moody after the results announcement
and yeah i was stupid and asked the wrong question so now im ...... BAHHS
anyways its good to see a smile

2007-02-08T22:46:00.000+08:00

bored so im here blogging
valentine's day is coming <3 better start losing weight :X
oh yeah and guess wad is 404 having on 13 feb ....
a differentiation test oh wow what a great pre valentine's day gift from dear mrs lim
an offer we cant refuse :X
sad sad mervin wana sleep all day
all night ..
well my sister is free from her a levels until august when her results out i presume
and she got a $8 per hour job selling shoes and she is also a relief teacher at Presbyterian high and mayflower primary
hoho funny stories and well she is so traumatised by pres high said they were naughty
well mayflower pri was adorable the funny questions they ask
ah well attire check is racing round my mind ._. my hair
chocochoco chip muffin mmmmmm yummy

2007-02-07T20:00:00.000+08:00

oh no its rotting here again!
bad news bad news but anyway im back to revive it and im not sure how long will i be able to sustain it :X
anyways life after my last post was ... hmm ..... pretty much so so
well nicholas and i went to get headsets with mic so yeah abusing free pc to pc calling
u shud get urs too ya noe cos i can talk to u for free xD
anyways err yeah can u imagine the sight of me with that, family said i looked like telecom operator
well erm did lousily for my tests again but phew i havent failed chinese test miraculous indeed however very low marks arent satisfying
i officially hate zonghetiankong if u are wondering what that is its the chinese cloze passage or whatever they call it. a passage with 10 blanks and 4 options for each blank
-________- anyway well my hair is pimped up :] but yeah high risk of getting caught and everyone was like wah so daring ah not scared kena caught
its starting to take a toll on my threshold for irritation and yeah pls stop asking ok
well got a ss test tmr and both A&E Maths to do i guess i shall stop here for now

2007-01-24T14:37:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BELATED-BY-ONE-DAY BIRRTHDAY JIE!
AND HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME xD

well ytd was a horrid day no jingshen to do maths la see the questions wana die la
and found out i lost my phone and started getting cranky and thus my mother got angry and scolded me like hell
yeah yeah i have a bad temper but cant she see im seriously troubled homework not done yet, lost phone no energy to keep awake
so i locked my myself in and just slept away my sorrow

well today was VERY NICE!
shir was the first to wish me happy b'day so touched la she was training her sjab squad then she suddenly approached and wished me
THANKS A LOT U REALLY MADE MY DAY (:
then jas gee and van gave me two little key chains of shoes so sweet but actually is a fake gift they surprised me with WHITE SHOES lol
thanks so much la and i dint treat them anything i feel so bad
I FEEL SO BAD AND THEY ARE LIKE SO KIND CAN!
LOVE THEM ALL!
i promise to buy u all presents ok?
well quite a few wished me happy birthday and may god bless them all (:
I LOVE U 404 xD
oh yeah and nick thanks for the early wishes (:

2007-01-17T17:09:00.000+08:00

well was supposed to do this but forgot and miss jasmine yeo kept pestering me to do so tadah!

you make a list of 5 things not many people know about you.then you tag 5 other people to do the same!

1.i have a big pink piglet bolster which i adore (:
2.i am a fussy eater. i am now eating more meat luh ok!
3.i think im emo but dno u can be frens with me and see fer yerself yea!
4.i love to play naruto games! :X
5. when SHE comes by my heart FLIES! btw its not S.H.E -__-

2007-01-17T16:56:00.000+08:00

OMG! i cant retain the feeling in my heart no more
i must let out
im soooo tired these few weeks of school omg my body cant take this
jet lag i presume but anyways
aargh tmr and fri and sat got NGEE ANN POLY the stupid comp for science thingy
and last few days came back at ard 5-6pm
other days 3-4pm
and i used to be a slacker and now this is straining
im under tremendous stress not to mention the pc lesson where dear mrs wong was suppose to to CARE for us but she made us did target setting and right our last year grades beside our target
how AWEFUL to see a C6 beside an A1
one word ... demoralising
anyways today had amaths differentiation test and guess wad
ytd i left my amaths txtbook at the cca room oh fux it and i was panicking la
i thot i left it on the bus/at the busstop/at 7-11?
gah so how to study
luckily i brought back notes and fys and i found my sister's tys
anyway made carelesss mistakes and bahh! shall not make myself more pekcek
so erm yea new school year kinda fun but stressful
OH NO MAY BE LAST YEAR WITH MY FRIENDS AND 404
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!
hais anyway a growth spurt can cheer me up though :X

when she comes by my heart FLIES!

2007-01-07T09:36:00.000+08:00

oh so sorry for not updating the blog but it cant be helped comp got shifted out of room ):
anyways its permanent so err i will try to blog but o levels is this year like so dang it la
now a new study table is in my room and it helped me complete my homework fast without distraction
anyways i shall skip the part about school for the past few days except these:
1. MR PAH IS MY ENGLISH TEACHER! ^^
2.MORE STRESS :(
3.AIR CON CLASSROOM!
4.NO CCA FROM TERM 2 ONWARDS ISIT (not sure)
5.NEW SITTING ARRANGEMENT! :/
6.MRS WONG AGAIN!

ok and yesterday was my deathnote2 day
NOOO! L died oopsies spoiler
anyways go watch the full marathon of deathnote1&2 at vivocity i think if u dint watch the first one
awesome yeah!

2006-12-22T22:35:00.000+08:00

lol wad a day
its dong chi and went to aunt house for dinner
scrumptious and lol saw my 3 month old cousin alice
so cute la but she is strong ok she could snatch smth from my hands
then it was off to pick up my mum and lol she told me smth lame
she said "remember that time in hk we buy the pirated dvd. yea the spiderman 3 right my fren say not even finish producing leh. out in sg in next may and then horh she said the spiderman 3 is fake because the story is about a man with a lot of spiders not the man in tights who can zoom here zoom there.....and she said the movie quite ok"
ahaha so funny
sis went to mak's house for xmas party): mr shannon mak nv invite me! bah
jk (: i want a clique xmas party though ._.
ahaha i saw a lame picture of 4 muscle men with the body painted purple green yellow and red respectively and had teletubbies heads ahaha so funny la
now im like going crazy abt teletubbies and laughing at their bellybuttons xD

2006-12-21T17:50:00.000+08:00

oh no the silence ....
ok im back long ago and realised my blog is rotting
i went hk on 13 dec and came back on 18 dec xD
fun trip ok let me fill u guys in on the details

DAY ONE
arrived at hk at 10 i think and took a bus to the hotel
third time in hk and third time in that hotel ._.
so our room was not prepared yet thus we left our luggages there and went off to eat lunch at a coffeehouse nearby
after that it was off to .... oh no i cant rmb
ahh yes to causeway bay which is like full of shopping centres its in the hong kong island and where my hotel was is kowloon which is connected to china la
the cities are mostly at hong kong island but there are a few suburban cities in kowloon too
ok then it was shopping all the way
and in the night was night market time
wahaha bargaining from HK$89 to HK$20 was fun

DAY TWO
was off to shenzhen which is in china
took a train there walked thru customs and went to the shopping mall
their mall so interesting la the price is like the night market de and all their stocks are hidden in the ceiling, behind their shelves are hidden doors and so on
can u imagine the thrill xD so cool la
so many hidden areas srelling pirated dvds :X
well shopped ard and then uh-oh mum and sis got into a fight and then we split
me mum and dad went back to hk while sis her fren and my aunt continued in china
so parents and i went to hotel rest then off to tsim sha tsui another city but in kowloon
there is the avenue of stars there where all hk stars names are featured and some with signature and handprints on the floor cudden take photos cos my cam no batt

DAY THREE
went to factory outlet stores
nike adidas birkenstock and many other brands were there in that big building
so cheap la much cheaper than in sing however i dint buy anything unlike the kiasu shoppers in my family practically stripped the stocks to zero
how sad i cudden find anything i like ):
then it was off to THE PEAK!
so cool la the peak i got a lot of photos but will upload some other time
their peak is the highest mountain/hill there so yeah there are shopping centres there too u noe and wow so many restaurants yea view from up there was nice but freezing not to mention the bad weather
kept on raining and raining for these three days
as in come and go la must be the durian hurricane isit, ah well this is the disadvantage of not watching news, u will end up saying something irrelevant on ur blog and make a fool of urself

DAY FOUR
bad weather ended however the temp was going down ): so cold and no moisturiser = peeling skin and cracking lips
went to da yu shan where the giant buddha sits
so cool la the cable car ride there and back
saw royutes where ppl walk there like siao la the cable car takes 15-20 mins to get there and somemore ppl climb there O.O
by the time they reach they will be half dead/fully dead and would not bother walking around there to see the sights
so darn windy and cold there la
then it was shopping again at night market
CLIQUE! i bought souvenirs for u guys xD
sorry if i dont have any souvenirs for other frens its hard to get so many things k

DAY FIVE
come home day ): and (: at the same time
had time to shop till 5pm but we were left with very little HK$
went to eat dim-sum yumyum
oops that rhymed ok anyways walked down avenue of stars thats all ): no time le
flew back and arrived at 11+ going 12
reached home at 12+ so considered that i came back on 18 instead of 17 xD

well after the trip life was low
nth happened my life is always at home de
watching naruto now so nice (:

2006-12-12T22:37:00.000+08:00

ok let me start off with the happy part of the day
went out with clique today today
van wasnt there she has to work awww bummer!
we missed her and well went bowling and shirleen was super funny (:
well alaf-ed a lot can and gee wow u are seriously a SUPER BOWLER!
then itn was to hg mall to burn time
SSR-ed
and photo y2k isit called, well its the spot the difference game and we were like trying to break the record but failed so many times
met ck ben caiyi shawn ivan there
chengwai and wilson were working and only went there to play drums a while
lol drums are so fun can
drums bring the world together xD

now for the upsetting part
firstly cant see frens for like so long miss all of you la
SO MUCH!
then it is the ..... let me see how to say it in a nice manner
family issues
argh i seriously cant stand them la
one is always trying to stir trouble and get me into trouble
arguing with her is worse than communicating with squirrels
her only rebutt she can think of when she is in a risk of losing an argument is "i tell mama arh"
then i'll be like tell la, why dont u tell the whole world too since talking back to unreasonable losers is a crime too
then is the pushover, always giving in to the jealous and "i tell mama arh" person
cos that person is always saying the final verdict is biased because she loses most of the time because she is fighting a losing battle because she is wrong and thus she will put on an act and shed crocodile tears and act as if she was tortured *rolls eyes*
and thus i become the loser and gets penalised, like wtf
and then is the ignorant person
he doesnt bother about me so yeah u call this care and love from a family member?
tough love i guess, i dont like so sorry u are also put in the list

ah feel better now i shall refrain from self-pity which i perform very often which makes me emo
so now i will be happier person to cheer others up instead of the other way

2006-12-08T19:21:00.000+08:00

wahahaha lost weight back again
back to my original weight
hmm i have a fat face :X with extremely big eyes for guys
i dont wan big eyes look so weird la
now my hair so short and my facial features so big i look fugly
i must grow tall! i must grow tall!
PLEASE OH LORD AND GOD AND HOWEVER WHO GRANT WISHES I WANT TO GROW TALLER PLS!
im sooooooooo short that i wana grow tall ):
ok yong le's officially in thailand and i hope he brings back souvenirs after my lovely farewell msg i sent him xD aint i nice
i wana get tanned who wana go swimming wib me (:
tag me xD

2006-12-07T19:47:00.001+08:00

OMG! YONG LE IS GOING THAILAND!
WISH HIM SAFE JOURNEY AND BRING BACK SOUVENIRS!
lol gona miss him tho ):
anyways let him have fun .... and im going to
HONG KONG! *beams at a jealous jasmine yeo* lol
went out to study with yl and jas so fun
and pls i managed to do my first assignment woohoo!
pop the champagne!
7th december is a good day man
well got loads more but im ready to chiong!
whee love clique!

*EDITS
oh yeah jasmine and yl wana go genting after Os
LOL i cant wait i wana go ! bring me there
anyone else wana go lol its kinda early and its just a suggestion ._.
12 december is clique outing day go bowling and scam coke machine GEE JAS! lets get wild and scam a lot of drinks(:

2006-12-06T23:02:00.000+08:00

oh oh
my blog is all words no picture!
maybe its because i have a sucker phone with sucker cam on it ok anyways i think i see spiderman on my blog and that is bad news ):
he is spinning his web everywhere!
ok too much lame thoughts
i am bored and i have an abundant/REDUNDANT load of homework waiting for me to touch
ok well going out to meet yl and JASMINE MUMMY TMR LA!
cant wait to see her i miss her lots la
i wana scam a coke machine BAD!
oh btw i feel ....
ok nvm

2006-12-06T22:23:00.001+08:00

karaoke anyone?
went to cut my hair and bought a nice jacket xD
thats all (:

2006-12-05T12:08:00.000+08:00

mervin is very very pissed off!
ooh my blogger beta the enhancement bar is back o.O
ok not my point
my fcking neighbours are pissing me off
first it was the fcking 3rd floor opposite unit renovation
now its my unit the 4th floor renovate
FCK THIS SHIT!
so noisy la
cant even hear a thing my family members say
cant talk on the phone
cant hear my music
scrrew them and i am waiting for their lunch break which is about now isnt it?
cant they jisyt go on strike and quit their jobs because they are lowly paid or smth
before i get the whole neighbourhood to sign a petition to chase those workers away
my dad works night shift poor him so now his sleep is disrupted with their persistent banging and drilling
when they hit with the hammer i can feel the vibration on my floor la
horrible horrible
somemore what is there to drill
drill so much later the house like cheese like that so many holes

2006-12-04T21:55:00.000+08:00

i wana change back to blogger instead of blogger beta
it sucks hell lots
ok went to watch happy feet with kevin and nicholas
lol the movie was nice and we could not find the macs there la
walk ard so many times but found sakae sushi and ate there instead
T.T so expensive but nice (: UNAGI!
the movie is about penguins and their custom to sing
its like a religion thing and then there were no fish for them to eat ):
because of HUMANS! )):
so mumble decided to get to the bottom of it and save the whole population (:
ahh spent $7 at the arcade playing nonsense lol
para para was horrible
daytona oni 2 ppl a time ):
saw clothes i want! no money
wad a day man
and JASMINE I WANT STUDY DAY!
must force myself to do hw la if not cannot best way is to go out to do it xD

2006-12-03T23:59:00.000+08:00

4 reasons i hate the holidays!

1.NO CLASSMATES! BOO I MISS 304
2.HOLIDAY HOMEWORK! BOO!
3.NO SCHEDULES FOR ME! STONE ALL DAY
4.NO ALLOWANCE

aren't holidays supposed to be the fruit of our hardwork, in this case 9+ months of education per year, and yet i feel so dreaded. i miss the 5ofyou! i want more more more more chalet lol.

i dont like loneliness can someone chase it away pls. ):
feel like scamming a coke machine lol saw this video of my sister's friends being evil

shud try it sometime :X

2006-12-03T21:51:00.000+08:00

OMFG I HATE BLOGGER BETA!
ah well i regret man.
haiz again with that bastard from friday
he keeps bugging me to hell
why cant he get a life?
my father and i play badminton together every sunday and he had to appear and join in
i really hate the way he pretends to be a goody-goody always screeching "yo!" when he sees me and i hate how arrogant he is
i will never want to see u again u arrogant fool
of course i left the court immediately
and my father seemed to enjoy playing with him
i feel so... so...
devasted.
now he is out to get my father. fine by all means take my father la
im sick of arguing with u im sick of even talking to u
u know how irritating u have to be to spoil the ONLY TIME MY FATHER WOULD INTERACT WITH ME!
he seldom talk to me
sometimes we dont even speak to one another for a day bcos we have nth to say
and u have to come in and poke ur fcking big pimply nose into other family's business
i already have a lot of family issues already
i really cant stand why u cant play with ur fcking god-damned father for god's sake
from now on i am erasing my memories of such a devious bastard from my life and i shant speak to u
not bad two days running and i ignored him
im not obligated to answer him
so now i am even deprived of my father, faced with a dictatorious someone. wow my life seems so wonderful.
argh why cant heaven have mercy for me
wads worse is that the bastard doesnt live in this neighbourhood.
he and his whacked-up friends from all over singapore love to meet up here to play
of all places my neighbourhood
wads worse is he was my primary 3 and 4 classmate
so how must erase so much of him
oh if you were wondering he is alexander dunno wad la
not bad i forgot the rest of his name xDDDDD
may his friendster link shine more light into this situation
http://www.friendster.com/10240347

2006-12-03T00:00:00.000+08:00

ok firstly i shall scream at blogger
they removed the bar to choose font, change size, italic, bold etc.
how am i gona do my blogging properly like that
i hate to type codes and codes for size i dno la
PISSED CAN! >:O
ok anyway nicholas was nice enough to go out to peirce reservoir with me
we went there for a slacker's picnic
lay's bbq chips and a zappel and coke
lol and i scammed the poor mama shop uncle of $1 :X
ok let me rephrase it
he was unable to solve the simple sum of $4 - $3.40 = $0.60 and instead produced a sum of
$4 - $3.40 = $1.60 and thus mervin earned $1 more xD
that was so unlike me
i used to be very honest , USED TO BE :X
he asked whether i needed a plastic bag and i shook my head said no and rushed out before my $1 win would be lost xD
anyways i was carrying the big sack of potatoes around, ok exaggerated, and people were staring at me?
must be because i was violently swinging it around as i walked
haha one fat lady was eye-ing it while i was walking past the park to get to the reservoir
haha so funny de face
it was like this O_O hehe
anyways got there and starting alafing and i was immediately high
we starting laughing for no reason and i feel so mean la
i dropped a chip and a big ant was taking it away and i took it back chased it away and put it back at the spot i dropped it on LOL?
haha evil
saw disturbing monkeys
one of it had deformed nipples la
the right one was so big and droopy and the other was small and less droopy
haha it ran towards our bench and eyed the chips
well we ignored it and it left thank god
after that it was another monkey that climbed up the dustbin and threw out all the crap and littered the place so rofl
did not bring my hp so i dont have vid of it ): wad a pity
after that mervin was naughty and littered because there were no dustbins for the whole stretch of walkway
oh well the monkeys will take it out of the dutbin anyways xD
I MISS 304 AGAIN!
i noticed that this blog is rather dead ._. hope people will tag if not i wudden noe they came T_T i shall work hard and produced good reads here (:
until then i wish u goodnight. oh wait i wish u good morning. oh no i wish u happy midnight (:

2006-12-02T16:25:00.000+08:00

Disenchanted - My Chemical Romance

Well I was there on the day
They sold the cause for the queen,
And when the lights all went out
We watched our lives on the screen.
I hate the ending myself,
But it started with an alright scene.

It was the roar of the crowd
That gave me heartache to sing.
It was a lie when they smiled
And said, "you won't feel a thing"
And as we ran from the cops
We laughed so hard it would sting

Yeah yeah, oh

If I'm so wrong (so wrong, so wrong)
How can you listen all night long? (night long, night long)
Now will it matter after I'm gone?
Because you never learn a goddamned thing.

You're just a sad song with nothing to say
About a life long wait for a hospital stay
And if you think that I'm wrong,
This never meant nothing to ya

I spent my high school career
Spit on and shoved to agree
So I could watch all my heroes
Sell a car on tv
Bring out the old guillotine
We'll show 'em what we all mean.

Yeah yeah, oh

If I'm so wrong (so wrong, so wrong)
How can you listen all night long? (night long, night long)
Now will it matter long after I'm gone?
Because you never learn a goddamned thing.

You're just a sad song with nothing to say
About a life long wait for a hospital stay
And if you think that I'm wrong,
This never meant nothing to ya

So go, go away, just go, run away.
But where did you run to? And where did you hide?
Go find another way, price you pay

Woah, Woah, Woah, Woah, Woah, Woah

You're just a sad song with nothing to say
About a life long wait for a hospital stay
And if you think that I'm wrong,
This never meant nothing to ya, come on

You're just a sad song with nothing to say
About a life long wait for a hospital stay
And if you think that I'm wrong,
This never meant nothing to ya

At all, at all, at all, at all

haiz feel so moody for n reason
and i hate that f*g from yesterday
he has the biggest ego one can ever recognise
i hate people who just can't admit their defeat and are sooooo arrogant
anyways i miss 304 so dearly
just hearing their voices can cheer me up
i havent seen them for ages and i want to meet up
if they wanted to meet me
i am missing so many people now la
i feeeeel soooooooo emo now
i must stop being self-pitiful and cheer up :|
i'm burning time away unnecessarily
omg i had to think for so long whether "unnecessarily" was spelled correctly
its how ironic that school holidays can bring about so much sorrow and unhappiness
i need my hush-hush now bad!
the thought about my dog brought me to tears
i miss his company
i miss licks
i miss his cuddlings
i miss his warmth
i miss his barks
i even miss the bites
how quiet the house is without u
im a wreck
anyways hope to see ALL OF YOU!
love.

2006-11-29T23:31:00.000+08:00

谁改变了我的世界

没有方向没有日夜

我看着天这一刻在想你

是否会对我一样思念

你曾说我们有一个梦

等到那天我们来实现

我望着天在心中默默念

下一秒你出现在眼前

想念的心装满的都是你

我的钢琴弹奏的都是你

我的日记写满的都是你的名

才发现又另一个黎明

你曾说我们有一个梦

等到那天我们来实现

我望着天在心中默默念

下一秒你出现在眼前

想念的心装满的都是你

我的钢琴弹奏的都是你

我的日记写满的都是你的名

才发现又另一个黎明

我的日记写满的都是你的名

才发现又另一个黎明

这是我对你爱的累积

so touching la this song and it was in my playlist for so many months before i really listened and understood the lyrics
i cant stop singing to it <3

2006-11-29T19:40:00.000+08:00

You Are Banana Pocky

Your attitude: fun and lighthearted
Unique and unforgettable
You are cutie everyone falls for

What Flavor Pocky Are You?

2006-11-29T15:12:00.000+08:00

Your Inner Child Is Happy

You see life as simple, and simple is a very good thing.You're cheerful and upbeat, taking everything as it comes.And you decide not to worry, even when things look bad.You figure there's just so many great things to look forward to.

How Is Your Inner Child?

You Have Your Sarcastic Moments

While you're not sarcastic at all times, you definitely have a cynical edge.In your opinion, not all people are annoying. Some are dead!And although you do have your genuine moments, you can't help getting your zingers in.Some people might be a little hurt by your sarcasm, but it's more likely they think you're hilarious.

How Sarcastic Are You?

Your Japanese Name Is...

Mamoru Takashi

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2006-11-29T14:29:00.000+08:00

boo u nicholas tan and kevin ng >:|
lol im just jealous that they got sony ericsson phones for their psle results!
so unfair la my year i got nothing from my parents!
somemore the gameboy that i had then was i save up de
and now she gave it to her colleague's children
my gameboy, my hard-saved money
booooooo! and they got it for free
ok anyways i wan a new phone bad and my stupid contract ends in like next year december
i wana watch step up! think its over le or is it still on
oh well most probably would miss it and be left to lie on my bed to rot and stone will i sulk about missing the movie
saw a few disturbing things today though
saw a kiasu old man who stole a very very thick stack of 4d paper, u know the one u have to shade de
and everyone was staring at him la and he kept going into buses and come out because he went in the wrong bus for 5 times
lol anyway he went into the same bus as me and sat in front of me and all of a sudden i there was a foul odour
he was so damn smelly la i left my seat immediately and went far away
i hate all those smelly old men la
well today i was dumb i was supposed to meet kai de at school at 1030 to buy books
i called the auntie ytd and she was open den when i went to school today she was closed
uniform selling personnel also open same day as the bookshop
what to do somemore open on the days im not in sg
dumb la but luckily kai de is s uch a nice person to help me buy (:
THANKYOU KAI DE!
well actually before that i woke up 0945 and was suppose to meet at 1030 so i rushed there to only realised i did not bring my booklist rofl so i went back all the way to amk to get it and came back to find out the bookshop is closed and decided to go hg mall's popular to be bumped out by the fact that they dont have the books
what a bummer! went back to amk central to buy my lunch and i just ate it
fried dumpling ramen YUM!
$3.50 so much la left so much ramen but i ate all the delicious dumplings x3

2006-11-27T21:11:00.000+08:00

argh i got a sick feeling to my gut again and i feel like closing this blog ._.
try not to bcos i feel that it is a conspiracy to write interesting things on my blogs as blogger apparently love to screw my posts and leave some parts out when i edit my typo errors that i notice
maybe its just that i am stupid and dno how to use
anyways no time to turn emo now and write depressing messages here
but i just came to notice that i am unreachable by my primary school friends o.O
i have only like 3 people from primary school in my msn
and my friendster is just disfunctional
0 friends in friendster hoho
so uhm yeah hopefully some of them can get to me cos i am too lazy to search them up
ah most likely i dont think they even bother about me ._.
im rotting at home la homework havent start somemore
i wana start but i cant be bothered to find it
procrastination is an uncurable bad habit
hope everyone is making much better use of their time than me and happy holidays

2006-11-27T12:17:00.000+08:00

FCK BLOGGER AND THEIR LOUSY SYSTEM!
THEY SCREWED MY PREVIOUS POST LA!
THEY GOT HALF OF IT DELETED FCK IT!
I HATE REPEATING MYSELF AND THUS SHAN'T RETYPE IT ASS HOLE BLOGGER.

2006-11-26T23:00:00.000+08:00

ARGH! >: MOOD SWINGS TOO MUCH!
i so hate myself and my unneccesary and impulse emotional releases
i keep hurting ppl ard me can, especially those im really close to
im such an ass hole, i seriously hate myself for abusing our friendship. I'M SORRY SINCERELY!
this is for no one special but to those i really hurt because of my irrationality
i know its kinda late to be hateful and punish myself for my previous mistakes but i hope that u can help me improve my character please!
I LOVE ALL MY FRIENDS AND FAMILY MEMBERS LOADS LOTS MILLIONS TONS! <3
i feel so bad and regretful la
ok anyways lets get down to business since i just got the horrid feeling breeding unhealthy unhappiness on my chest
nothing much happened today i woke up exceptionally early but did nothing much but played pokemon red rescue team haha lol hey i completed the storyboard
i got this bad habit, and i seriously mean BAD, of procrastinating my homework la
i always have this bad mindset of "oh nevermind there is always tomorrow, somemore today i'm so tired" i feel like slapping myself
ok had an afternoon nap from 2 to 5 which refreshed me and i was awakened by my father's call for me to play badminton with him
now he goes jogging and plays badminton lol healthy lifestyle

oh wait before i continue my story i must say I HATE MY RIGHT SPEAKER! it keeps switching on and off by itself as my music is playing and it sounds so irritating
ah might as well off my music =_________=

ok back to my story well my sister tagged along and gah i was so darn lousy la
last week was ok but one week later easy shots i missed and got hit on my head )):
lol anyways hais one match really ticked me off
my father was darn tired and yet he won and its not the fact that he won i am pissed
is that my sister was teaching him her tactic of making the opponent run and she was like sitting at the side
"hit further make he run"
"shoot that corner , see the way he return the shot i dont think he can hit la"
i was like a guinea pig to her
i was darn angry la so i went back home and decided to go for a run in the park to run off all my problems but as i was thinking about it on the way there i calmed down and was happy again
for no apparent reason too ._.
well im aquarius, we tend to get emotional very often and i find it very true
i shall stop my aquarius-ness and thats the reason for the apologies ><

2006-11-25T21:48:00.000+08:00

bahhs havent blog about chalet
ok lets start although there are lots of views that are unjust

Wednesday
had to pack up in the morning and had to go with my sister becos they needed someone above 18 to check in and my sister was free to help
so had to go with her instead of with the rest going together from cp
wad ticked me off seriously was how they were so grumbly about me arriving late
ACTUALLY i wasnt
they said 3 and den messaged me at about 2.45 and said 2.30 pass le leh how come u havent arrived
PISSED OFF LA
somemore reach there rain so heavily and ran there all drenched and my sister got real mad la
she said that i made her go to dte to check in and got her wet
and then they were like why so late because they were waiting for a "long time"
i had a long face la and they were still wondering why
i did not tell them la of course but here it is
my sister mad at me and they are like mad at me for being "late" which i was not
what u want me to do im not god nor a miracle worker
anyways i provided them with a ps2 and bring some of the food
and u know my sister did not want to help because she only needed to sign her name
and also no guys went to help to collect the seafood and chicken wing for the bbq
so me shir van gee and jas were the only ones who went to collect and same problem that i had with my father
we cant seem to meet at the right entrance
poor gee was scolded when she was the provider
sorry gee!
then bbq MR ANG CAME!
so funny la he
bad hair day so he wore a cap and we were like suaning him about love poems
he going on switzerland on honeymoon
and we were like teasing him
" ni shi wo de logarithms, mei you le ni wo bu ke neng jie jue wen ti" LOL
hahs after that movie marathon
watched "see no evil" where kane was a psychotic murderer who digs eyeballs out of his victims
and "hard candy' which was dumb la
its a about a 14 year old model who went to this photographer's for a photoshoot but she knew that he was a pedophile and drugged him and interrogated him
she tied him down and searched for evidence and in the end she castrated him
so saddistic the way she castrated him and showed his balls haha
after went to beach walk walk and met 2 gangs o the way to red house
one of them were nice to us like help us watch out for police and they were like trying to drag us into their gang but we went back instead
went back to sleep

Thursday
second night went arcade and played drums like mad la
km and jw were so funny wasting their credit because they tried intermediate and kept dying in the first song
lol after that was off to escape with yl kd and km
wanted to drive go-kart beginner course but it rained when were one turn away to drive NOO!
then went back to chalet and cursed and waited for the rain to stop and the rides to reopen before we went back and waited for 1 hr 45 mins for the go kart advanced course which was worth the wait
fun and then we went back because jw said to meet back at 4.30 but in the end there was nth going on so me and yl went for "a walk" to escape to ride rainbow and flipper
then it was dinner at bk with van and yl
then it was bbq and i was too tired and slept ;X
i dint help out la IM SORRY 304!

Friday
went back home and reached home darn tired.
shant elaborate because we spoilt someone's net and he got angry with us and left without saying a word!
sorry la

Today
went out with sister to go adidas sale at expo
like open for dno hw many days liao and the exhibition hall was only half filled with goods
damn la such a spoiler
NO SOCCER BOOTS(WITHOUT STUDS) - SPOILER!
NO SHOEBAG - SPOILER!
NO JACKET - SPOILER!
bought a cap which im still wearing as i blog (:
$8 dollars nia
anyways went to town to meet mother and aunty and bought a nice brown polo tee from foxxy men
after that went to new york new york to eat
so big man the serving and the price is right (:
yummy so after that went to raffles shoopping entre to buy my mother's gift for her boss
and then went home and now im here blogging

happy holidays!

2006-11-21T14:40:00.000+08:00

whee
finally saw the 4 MEI NUs today
bahs almost stepon shit la thank god for that old man who stopped me jus in time
anyways was greeted by my JASMINEmummy for 5 bucks la
i promised to buy those christmas cards
then after that met up at macs before going on our shopping trip
bahhs i need help to bring stuff to dte
thank goodness kai de willing to help thks buddy
anymore who wana help pls meet at the bus stop with bus 27 outside compass point at 1pm
if u dno which bus stop wait at compasspoint and call me at 96225236 (:

2006-11-21T14:22:00.000+08:00

Saturday
OH NO!
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY NICHOLAS TAN!
YOU ARE FINALLY 12 [:
although he had a sleepover at my house on friday i dint blog about it :X
sorry for belated greeting although i tried greeting u in japanese haha
oh yeah
HAPPY 22nd WEDDING ANNIVERSARY MUM AND DAD! <3

Sunday
was Sussi's day off and i thot she went to the market and foolish me waited all the way to 1pm only to be told by my sister that she went out
FOOLISH ME!
and there i was waiting for my breakfast :X
anyways for dinner we went to some prata house that the newpaper recommended
and boy was it horrible
had stomach ache and the service was slow and bad
no receipt no nothing they can anyhow charge one la
oh and there was this couple so idiot la
boyfren take one packetof keropok and ask girlfren run to hide
while he suspiciously fnds the packets with the biggest keropok and buy
1 packet 50 cents and he bought 4 packet and stole 1 packet
stupid la and somemore the indian man gave us a free packet
also the couple took a mercedes cab home
STUPID!
oh yeah and they made my father pissed as they had horrible service
"wah u say wait wait wait so long still dont have, tell u not to take air india la take SIA"
"sorry la boss"
"wah wait somemore i dont want pay"
"cannot like that la"
"then u minus our bill"
"cannot i dont like minus i like plus"
sparks flew as i was caught in the crossfire between them
my father was so racist in front of them la tsk but anyways glad that was over

Sunday & Monday
*bouncing on bed and screaming*
CANT WAIT FOR CHALET TO SEE 304 !

2006-11-17T19:01:00.000+08:00

i cant stand it when some people do not understand what it means when they lose an arguement
like c'mon man do u really think ur limited vocabulary and ur single word replies are gona get u anywhere
oh please an arguement is suppose to tell the other party about ur stand and try to outwit
i repeat its outwit and not irritate
i am not obliged to argue or even try to converse with people who love saying the same bloody ONE WORD answer over and over again like a broken record
al they are doing is trying to waste other people's time and try to make the arguement longer although they have already lost
please learn to use other words besides "and?" & "so?"
i noe the situation well and i dont see what is there to do at the SAME mall for 8 fcking hours idling around and pretending to have a motive
8 hours is more than enough time damnit
8 hours is even enough to drive around the whole of singapore la
enough for a drive to kl from singapore
enough time to take a flight to China
u get the message!

2006-11-16T12:04:00.001+08:00

love this video lots

2006-11-16T11:47:00.000+08:00

finally i managed to get in blogskins.com and change that horrendous skin away (:
now this is nicer of course a bit emo but its nice

i cant get this song out of my mind
so nice (:

2006-11-15T22:24:00.000+08:00

OMG! evolution of lickthebanana.blogspot.com
it started of as my blog
then someone weird guy by the name of noah phillips stole the link after i closed it and made it into a nutrition and restaurant guide lol
then IT BECAME A PORN SITE!
omg that poor link is screwed once after another
that noah phillips shud learn to control his desires!
ANGRY AND PISSED!
some people still link me as lickthebanana.blogspot.com la
im so FRAMED
that malignant link will make me look like some chikopek like that noah la
PLEASE UPDATE MY LINK!
PLEASE!

2006-11-15T21:41:00.000+08:00

argh
I HAVE BEEN DENIED ENTRY INTO BLOGSKINS.COM
"We seem to be having database issues at the moment. Please try again later. "
for two days straight le
bahhs i cant change this skin
i hate it la actually because i decided to read my own blog and eew found it so EEW
so i wana change, im sorry to my readers that i did not realise this sooner
now i cant change the skin and i am utterly bored out of my mind at home
i wana sleep but i cant
i keep yawning but i just cant sleep and btw its still 9+
i miss my frens..... no laughter, no joy, now its so quiet
i do not embrace solitude
I WANT A TWIN! :X there i go again....i shall stop the ranting and desire for a twin before i write two paragraphs of expository text to scare away my readers and leave them under the negative influemce of me and suddenly feel an urge to want a twin too
enough said, today is jus unexplainable
went all the way to hougang to play soccer and in the end ended up as keeper (:
so fun right.. anyways after that went to eat then went to hougang mall to walk ard and chat
LOL andrew bought the death note!
beware u dare provoke him, 40 seconds after ur name is written down u can say hello to god for me (: and if u do tell him i want a twin and to grow tall and to be smart and to be rich .... u get the message (: i want the wan mei de sheng ming
LOL was at long john silver talking with yiesing andrew and shannon
so funny la they all talk about random facts of some people
so interesting .....
oh no i jus realised i am starting a bad habit of using "..."
bahhs im still typing aimlessly
oh well wishes everybody best of health and to be happy?
ah JUST PLAY HARD during holidays (:

2006-11-14T20:09:00.000+08:00

haha stupidest thing happened
on my way to the park to force myself to run a stretch of 3.7 km to burn of excess and useless fats i stepped on a rock and sprained my god damned ankle
now its swollen and also my shoe was also stained with many spots of mud
and i just washed it
OH MAN!
stupid la sheesh anyway i finished the run ok (:
although i did run since road run till now this shows hw good i am LOL jk
i am very humble and sigh was terribly slow la
got so many people overtake me ):
saw some old men so solid run so fast and so fit
hais why cant i stay commited
i hate fats and body odour and facial oil
what in the word do they benefit us
it only makes us uncomfortable and disgusting
and when will i get another growth spurt
i wana grow taller PLEASE
please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please
oops accidentally locked my messenger
erhh..... i was home ridden for so long la
can somebody bring me go gaigai (shopping)
i'm like wasting my youth away to pokemon, the evils of games that are cute
i wana go out bad!
i wish i have a twin brother, then i shall never be lonesome and he shall accompany me
i dont mind a 'pretend' brother too